As i look out in hte rain..can almost feel the pain..that i'm numbed from its touch cuz i've felt way too much.
Its like a searing white pain..that pierces straight and blasts out thru my brain..
and yet...........
When i look out into the bright sunlight...can almost feel the exuberating joy i knew then.....now....nothing but ..numbness..from every thing..total isolation...am all consuming paralisis..evading to the core.
Dont know which is best..to feel too extremely... the good and the bad..or to not feel the damage...that i know is rotting me to the core.
rebekah s east
04-06-08
