IN THE LAST YEAR I HAVE GONE THREW SO MUCH AND I HAVE REALIZED THAT DRUGS AND ALCOHOL JUST ARNT WORTH IT WHEN YOU HAVE CHILDREN, AROUND THIS TIME OF LAST YEAR I WAS A HEAVY POT SMOKER AND A WHISKY PUKING ALCHY , WITCH EVENTUALLY ENDED UP WITH THE DHS COMING TO TAKE MY 2 BEAUTFULL LITTLE GIRLS FROM ME, ANANYA WHO WAS ONLY 4 AT THE TIME AND KENDLE WHO WAS ONLY 3 MONTHS OLD, I HAVE DONE ALOT TO MAKE SHURE THAT I GET THEM BACK, I HAVE GONE TO A.A AND I HAVE GONE TO DRUG TREATMENT AND IF EVERYTHING GOES WELL I SHOULD HAVE THE ORDER TO GET THEM BACK AT THE END OF THIS MONTH WITCH IM VERY EXCITED ABOUT.
BUT I WISH NONE OF IT WOULD HAVE EVER HAPPENED KENDLE WHO IS NOW A YEAR OLD HAS GROWN UP SO SO SO MUCH AND IVE MIST ALOT IN HER LIFE, HER LEARNING TO CRAWL HER FIRST WORD HER FIRST STEP ALOT OF THINGS I WISH I COULD HAVE BENE THER FOR.
ANANYA WHO IS NOW 5 ALWAYS ASK ME WHY SHE CANT COME HOME AND STAY WITH MOMMY AND THERE ISNT AN ANSWER I FEAL I CAN GIVE HER IM SO SORRY I LET MY CHILDREN DOWN , BUT I CANT CHNAGE THE PAST AND CAN ONLY MOVE FORWARD WITCH IS WHAT I HAVE DONE, I NO LONGER DO DRUGS OR DRNK HEAVELY AND IM VERY PROUD OF MYSELF, SO THE QUESTION IS , ARE THE DRUGS AND BOOZE WORTH WHAT YOU CAN LOOZE FROM IT, SHURE IT MAY BE FUN BUT THE ANSWER IS NO I JUST WISHED I COULD OF REALIZED THAT SOONER.