SeraphimAngel666's blog: "My thoughts and feelins"

Well its been a very long Year for me and i still have alot yet to accomplish before the end of the year is over, It has been a very rough one for me alot has happened in my life and not all good i am now faced with alot of serious decisions i need to make , and some of those are going to be very hard for me to make for it is going to affect alot of people.and not in very good ways i might add , I am at a crossroads in my life asking myself where do i wish to be and what do i wish to do if i had it my way i would be out on the open road in a Large
RV traveling with my animals and enjoying my life for once , instead of living my life for other people and caring what they think or feel i have made alot of mistakes in my life over the past few years some i wish to god i could go back and redo and some are not so bad but i do wish i could definately redo some of them for i would not of made the mistakes i did . Over my whole Life i wish i had of listened to my mother more and not been so quick to wish to grow up but now being im going to turn 46 tomorrow i have learned alot of things i wish i knew back when i was younger,Im finding myself sitting wishing i was closer now to my family so i could spend some time with them and get to really spend some time with my grand daughters hopefully soon i will be able to see them , i do miss alot of things being so far from my family and all for i started out in virginia and now am in Tulsa Oklahoma sometimes i wish i was back in Virginia especially now with my Health Failing the way it is, i am finding i am starting to literally shut down my emotions and all and shutting everything out kind of like a quiet time to myself one i have been needing for a very long time .i figure the more time i spend with me i will be able to deal with alot of the decisions i need to make .i have spent my entire life living for others so now its time for me to live for me and what i want and need, As long as my health holds out i am going to do some traveling and go to see things i want to see and do the things i want to while im still ablel to do them for not to long from now i wont be able to do them anymore for i will be wheelchair bound and not able to enjoy as much as i can right now .

I still have my good days and i also have alot of bad ones also but the one thing i really wish to see while i am  still able to is the northern lights , for i am fascinated with them lso i luv taking pics and i want some up close and personal ones that i can take.I am actually very lucky to even be here for by all medial standards i sould not be here but God Blessed me to keep me here to fulfill a purpose and i am doing that as well , for i also do alot of teaching , i grew up in the Wiccan Ways and Became a High Priestess, but since Februrary of this year all of that has fallen to the side for i have found a much stronger spiritual path to follow , one which has allowed me to teach othersof the Disease i have and to make them aware of howEasy it is to live with it rather then to die from it .

I have 3 grown boys all of which i am very proud of , i share my home with 3 dogs and more then enough cats but i am a animnal lover and would not change that for nothing for each one has theyre own lil personalitiy and i love them all dearly, also one of my passions is going to ren fairs as well as pow wows , and i love flea markets and yard sales and just going to the lake and vegging when i can , i basically u could say love nature and everything in it , especially my herb garens and veggie and flower gardens. Most who know me call me Ravyn but my name is Lorena<Laura> to most, i luv all kinds of music and nascar and wrestling somewhat, I easy going and a good friend when needed but im also someone u do not wish to cross  ofor i can be a queen u know what when i need to be, if u wish to get to know more about me all u half to do is ask i shall be more then happy to tell u all u wish to know .