The darkest days, the coldest nights. You learn to hate, you learn to cry, you maybe even wish to die.
You tell the one who should love you the most, they beat you down and call you names, and say that you're the one to blame.
Growing up was never fun, it only made you want to run. You hide your face, you hide your shame, wondering if you really were the one to blame.
The scars that are left, though can't be seen can make you hateful & mean. A beaten down woman submissive to all, always the one that is willing to crawl.
Through it all I know you couldn't see that God was with you as he was with me. He gave you strength when you wished you were dead, he kept you from putting that gun to your head.
Your purpose for living, you couldn't see, all you wanted was just to be free. One cold winters night God gave you a gift to help make it all right.
Now your a mother, with the chance to show how deep the love of mother is suppose to go. To stand up and fight every adversary and foe.
Your making a difference though the progress is slow, one day he'll realize , one day he'll know you never gave up, you continued to fight with everything you have, with all of your might.
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PRAY TO WHO OR WHAT EVER YOU BELIEVE IN......COURT IS MONDAY THE 3RD OF MARCH......SHOULD THE MAN WHO ABUSE YOU AS A CHILD, AND FATHERED THIS CHILD HAVE RIGHTS AS A PARENT.....OUR COURT SYSTEM SAYS SO....WE ARE FIGHTING WITH ALL OF OUR MIGHT TO KEEP HIM AWAY FROM THIS CHILD.
UPDATE.....THE SYSTEM IS F*CK*D UP!!! The abuser brought his cousin to court (claiming to be his sister) and she has filed for custody of my nephew......As of now there is no return court date..it could be months. And the DHR(dept. of human services) social worker didn't think it was NECESSARY for my nephew to have counciling...I had to request that she get him someone to help him understand what is going on in his life, at 6yrs old.
**NEW COURT DATE SET FOR AUG. 5TH** Until then, my nephew has to stay in foster care, in "protective custody" ...the foster mother, does not allow us to talk to my nephew, she doesn't answer our messages, Sometimes, it is a week or more before we get to hear his voice.
We tried to have his foster home changed so that he would be closer to where we (my sister) lives...but the court ruled against the change.
Please keep us in your thoughts and prayers.
