ouakerie I am not special But I am me c...'s blog: "My Sister, My Hero!"

When I was growing up I had a dream. to get married to someone I REALLY loved and have kis and watch them grow up with my arms around my wife and a feeling of love that would make the Leave It To Beaver's think they were dysfunctional. My dream came true for a little bit.. then I found out the only reason I was married to was to get out of her parents house... I could do nothing to please her... I would have to buy her something for it to be love for her.. staying home at night to sit down and watch a movie after working all day was me just bieng lazy to her. she had to go out every day to do something even when I was sick.. she can not drive so I have to take her... I got lost in the feeling of hopelessness and watched as my dream broke apart. I tried for many years to fix my dream and in the end I was standing there while my wife runs off with another man. Staring at a pile of dust. My heart had broken into a million pieces and there was nothing I could do. I love her still with everything I have. But, I know that in the end all I have is a shattered dream and a million pieces. So now to you I give a piece of my heart to carry with you to remember that you can try as hard as you like to achieve what you want and get nothing more than a million pieces. now this is for everyone not just the girls. I need my heart to be with you all cause then I have a friend to watch over my heart. thank you and bless you.

My sister Kelly Jo Marlene Good born in 1969. She was the best person I ever met. She had downe syndrome.... for those of you who do not know what that is... it is eing with an extra orless one chromosone.. also called mongoloid.. retarded.. She was born at a time when they wanted nothing to do with this. My mother and father fought tooth and nail to gt her everything she should have had. For those of you with children how would you like to hear from the doctor "put her away in an institution and forget about her. have some REAL babies". I will go forward in time. what I know about her and why I call her my Hero. I am 34 now.. I look around.. she has been gone for almost 5 years.. and I feel the love sucked out of that which is around me. I remember her love.. her counting down the days till special events... 10.. 9 .. 8.. 7.. ... christmas birthdays .. every holiday.. when someone is coming to visit her... When you came or went no matter how long or short she would give you a hug and a kiss.. when your favorite song came on she would come get you so you could hear it... She went to work every day of her life. she came home did her homework everyday. 1 + 6 = ___ ... trace the letter G... She was simple to please and loved to laugh. she had a way of knowing when you were hurting inside when no one else would see it. how many people look at those around them and actually see what it is they really are... look past the bad and find the good... can YOU do that? She lived to be 33...she lives on in the hearts of those that she been around... I could never fit all there is about my sister in one blog and I would not want to give her all to you at once ... i dont think you could hold all that love in at once so I will break it up and give it to you in pieces ... her life as I have seen it... the good the bad the sad the happy all of it.... With my love to you Kelly your brother !