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I cross my heart...

This if for you and you know who you are... I still love you more then you could ever know! I love you baby! Our love is unconditional We knew it from the start I see it in your eyes You can feel it from my heart From here on after Let's stay the way we are right now And share all the love and laughter That a lifetime will allow [chorus] I cross my heart And promise to Give all I've got to give To make all your dreams come true In all the world You'll never find A love as true as mine You will always be the miracle That makes my life complete And as long as there's still breath in me I'll make yours just as sweet As we look into the future It's as far as we can see So let's make each tomorrow Be the best that it can be [chorus] And if along the way we find a day It starts the storm You've got the promise of my love To keep you warm

The last 3 weeks...

In the last 3 weeks my whole world seems to have fallen into the pits. First I seem to have lost someone I love more then he even knows it. I would pick up my phone and call but I get 4 or 5 rings then his voice mail. He explained to me that he has been going through a lot at the moment and I understand that. He tells me he loves me and that he wants me to be there with him, and I want nothing more then to make that happen. I have never loved someone so deeply and sincearly. I worry about him all the time. he is my knight. I love the way thinking about him makes me feel and if I could be there right now I would be damn it! I called him over a hundred times to make sure he was doing alright (and to hear his heavenly voice OMG *drools*) and he never answered... Then almost a week ago I was at home (when I was living with my roomate in an apartment complex) my sister (who had come to stay with me for a few weeks) needed me to go and get her money out of her car in the parking lot of the complex. I was sitting in the car looking for it when 3 or 4 really huge black guys surrounded me and told me to give them what ever money I had and when I said I didnt have any, one of them grabed me, held me down, and covered my mouth while the others proceded to beat the ever loving shit out of me. When they were done they left me there for dead (and thats exactly where I was headed or it felt like it anyway) My sister Jenny knowticed how long I had been gone and she went to see if I had found it or not. When she saw me she started to scream (she said I really dont remember much after they left me there)she called 911 and had an abulace come for me. I was in the hospital for 2 days befor they let me go home. I was in so much pain I didnt know what to think. I have 2 broken ribs (they thought peices of them had broken off into my left lung) my arm is broken in 3 places and my wrist is broken as well. (most of you should know I dont like to type one handed lol its not easy and its a pain in the ass.. so I have Jenny do it all buwahahaha) anyways... my mom got me home and I am doing better. Then to top it all off... yesterday I had to go and see the doctor so he could make sure I was healing alright. (I am starting to but Im still in so much pain I cant hardly get up in the morning to go to the bathroom) so on our way home I get a phone call from my daddy, letting me know I need to go and get my little brother form his friends house and get home as fast as we could. you see my mom had a doctors apointment yesterday as well... only hers was for her shoulder, from the car wreck she and my 2 younger siblings were in about a month and a half ago or so. I gave the phone to jenny because she wanted to tell dad that he and I had a movie date tonight at 7:30 to see the new james bond (omg I cant wait me and my daddy loooooove that stuff) so he tells her something and she pulls over and starts to tear up. when she gets off the phone I wanna know wahts going on. but she wont tell me... "tell me now damnit!" "alright missa but dont flip out because its not good for your ribs... Mom needs all of us together to let us know there is a very high possabilty she has Cancer in her shoulder... she also has an anurisum (sp) that is in one of her mayjor veins headed to her heart and if it breaks away she could..." "STOP! I dont want to know anymore..." then mom calls me and lets me know wahts going on and not to say anything to my little brother she wanted to tell all of us together... I didnt cry untill I got off the phone with her... and I bawled... we got home with my brother and she sat us down and told us... we ate dinner and watched movies then I went for a walk in the cold with no jacket around the block like 5 or 6 times to clear my head) not a good idea with broken ribs and arm. but I didnt care... I came back to the house and she was standing outside with my little sister and Jenny talking and giggeling... I was trying to make it look like I hadnt been crying... didnt work. she held me and I let it go... she told me she is going to be alright and I hope so... she and dad went to her other doctor and they will be back later this afternoon and then they will tell us what eles they know. So there you have it the worst 3 weeks of my life... The man I love either A. doesnt want to speak to me or B. hates me. I am sick and in tones of pain. And to top it all off my Mommy (who is my best friend and knows me better then anyone) is sick and might have Cancer... Great for a first Blog huh... *a big thanks to Jenny my sister for typing this out for me as I sat here and told her what to say, thanks sis*
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