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created on 10/20/2016  |  http://fubar.com/my-rants/b368493  |  1 followers

haunted

the past still haunts me to no end when you know deep down in your mind the one you loved can betray you in such a way

you slowly die of a  broken heart. you want to move on you want to heal.. but in  your mind you know he is gone. but your heart.

has a small ray of  hope still waiting its been 3 yrs I want to move on and  with all my slef strength i try to heal try to get back out there.

start talking to other people only to find. its all a facad a joke with all the health problems i feel i have nothing  to offer .

silently i sit and listen to music and  wish at times if  there is anyone out there then i catch myslef that wont ever happen.

yet I know its on me to heal its on me to move fwd yet so far i talk to people a bit more and think is this all there is left.

im trying to break the fear of being hurt. again talk to  a few guys to young or to far or just want to play games in your head.

but deep down i know  since he left ive been slowly dieing of a broken heart.... copd3 heart issues had a heart attack during the separation. yet he said he knew me welll  but he cant see it now maybe he does and cant face it none the less im left with a void.

 

i cant seem to fill at times  io catch myslef and say theres some one out there but reality hits me with  being on disabilty living with my

son and finace..  i continue to fight i continue for  my son but is it enough? seems like ill  never get over being haunted the pain always linger yet i know he betrayed me  and i was loyale till it almost killed me so why do i still care about him   im ready to move on yet the fear of another night mare  will happen one i wont be able to  survive... this is my haunting hes a shadow maybe its his way to say ill never forget you .... but its haunting me....

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