kayock's blog: "My Poetry"

One more time Is a lost love just subposed to be from long ago? Does it have to have a dark and sorid past to know or can it be one from yesterday? Or maybe the girl who didn't stay? Who has the answers to these. Is a million miles the best misery Or decades of tears Does any one have answers to my fears? So if its either time to short or long or a heart thats unstrong or miles of dirt keeping us apart do you wish for a start Love just one more time Or is old love a crime? I Found You today There was once this girl I did love with my all For her now i await the call cuz i promise u i'll be here Cuz she easies my fear She always made me believe in divinity She makes me believe in serenity From the doors of my past she steps out And now I want to shout "It's her yes it is" At me she is a wiz No one knows me more And me she never bores I could talk with her every day But then why didn't she stay Must have been my fault Cuz shes perfect, an angelic vault So to her my best friend, lover, eternal heart keeper for you i will fight the reaper bY Eric Z Fox meadow lark if i never heard voice again would an eternal cry begin would i lose my life, or go insain would my heart drowned in sorrow and shame would your soul hear my pleads and your eys see how my heart bleeds so do not leave me in the dark thats only for dirty meadow larks cuz insanity i want but me u could haunt 4ever till my dieing day my last breath cuz till then ill love your breast and your eyes, how they are heavenly skies dark and mysterious are they inviting me to stay so i guess then if u'd die today i'd die tomorrow from a world of sorrow. By Eric Fox for some one special. Untitled Will it be 4 ever till i see you again Do you know you are a ten Do you know i am your candel through dark places I ll be the one to fill your spaces When the demon comes in my view Telling me we're through Ill just scream your name J....... And it will stop the fiend You are the dearest thing to me Its like heaven times three Once again ill await till the end of days cuz she is my craz. IMMORTAL LOVE FOR EONS PAST- AND TIME SO VAST I LOVE YOU UNCONDITIONALY AND THOUGH WE AREN’T TRADITANALY HUSBAND AND WIFE WE WILL ETERNALY HELP MAN THROUGH ITS STRIFF FOR WE ARE KINDRED CREATURES- UNDYING TEACHERS AND YES OUR KISSES PINCH WE NEVER TAKE MORE THEN A PINCH JUST ENOUGH TO QUENCH OUR THIRST AND WATCH MAN WHOS CURSED BY THINGS MUCH WORSE THEN US AND WE DON’T PUT UP MUCH FUSS UNLESS U TRY TO KEEP US CORNERED. TRAPPED! THEN OUR FANGS PROCEED BLOOD STRAPPED CLAWS BIGHTING SLASHING ALL THESE YOU’LL GET TRY ME LETS BET Eric Z Fox 4/25/07 The ending falls out huh? The poetry of Gwen Eternity For thousands of years it was only you Yes, as Egyptian slaves my heart was true And as Romans we danced through ancient wonders In Iceland we worshiped Thor god of thunder For you countless times I've died And for me I know countless times you've cried Yet, still I fight to go on Because I know you'll never be gone So once again in purgatory I wait For three sisters to decide my fate Just like three times before When I gave my life so you'd have more Several times I gave my Gods for you Just to hear you say you love me too Yet now we live apart And I wish for a start Truly though I know it will come Because eternity has just begun. Last night I dreamed of watching the sunset with you Together we watched the disappearing color of blue Then you placed your hands inside of mine And I lost track of all time Slowly bright stars came to life And from my heart I lost all strife The bright moon caused your dark hair to gleam Then I knew for my broken heart you were the seam Leisurely you looked into my eyes and held my heart in your arms And you, I knew were heavens charms But alas you belong to another Fortunately it's not my brother And so for your love I've decided to fight Yet now I'll enjoy this heavenly starlight. I can't love you any more I can't love you any more. Because you already shoved me through a door I have to let you go My resolve I do have to show I must not imagine how much of you I do adore Because then I know you'll make me soar Into a place it's already been A place that's hard to mend But that is what I must deplore Because I can't love you anymore Yet this I know and this a try and show But you feel the same even if you're hiding in a game From your touch and eyes I can see That I make you sing happily But you probably won't change And my life you'll want to rearrange So I can't love you any more Because you are a whore! Gwen Who can you trust more than I? When surely you know for you I'd die When I would take your burdens upon my shoulder And for your candle I'd be the holder Into your arms is where I wish to be But you think this is absurdity. So with my heart you'd rather play When all I want is for you to stay. Maybe I'm that ugly or awful Or perhaps just pitiful Do you still think I am unworthy? Well I guess that is surely Than tell me what to do And I'll do it times two But this must be done So than just stop having fun Or say goodbye! Jackie/Gwen Were you once called by another name? Because I know you have already played this game For countless centuries you've conquered the strong And you've played a repeating song That! Is how I know you It, is what has shown me true That you are a demoness of several guises And your face is on temple rises Is the fall of Rome upon your head? Is that why evil will never be dead? Because for all time you'll give it birth You are the source of all evil mirth So are you the bringer of all that is leery? Are you the ancient Nefateri? Then why can I not be Pharaoh? Why can the God king not be me? So I could send your heart away unhappily To wonder the endless dessert sands And be broken by a slave masters hands Even if he is deliverance I will destroy him for six pence Even if it is hell that is my destiny Than still I will search for my eternity That demoness who bites me still I will always cherish with all my will So to any god I would pray If it makes my love stay. Two Wrongs or right I know I committed the worst atrocity But why do you have so much hostility All I've done is love you to long and much Thought it's your fault cuz your touch I know you think I'm unworthy But how could you think I'm undeserving My devotion to you has never swayed And how dearly I wish you had stayed But to another man you went So know I'll never be heaven sent Though you too were wrong To push me away when we made our own song So though you love me will still fight Do you think two wrongs make a right? Do you know how hard it was to allow my heart to grow? Do you know how hard it was to let your heart go? And do you believe, that my soul grieves? Do I have faith in a being that is all seeing? Omnipotence The word is quite fancy When I looked into your eyes I saw heavenly skies But you pushed me away, And did you think I would just stay That I would want you any day. There was once a time When I would give all that is mine Unfortunately things were changed And there is nothing that I can do Well 'maybe' I Love You But I bet neither of us would say it out loud Because we are both to proud. But I know its true, Why don't you??? Gwen It's not that I fear straying eyes It's that I fear love dies And I will keep it alive no mater the cost I don't believe ours could be lost My soul shimmers just when I think your name Please don't let this be a game I would hold you even if it weren't needed To God I've already pleaded I'd listen even when you're mad And give you space when you are sad I've broken your wall before So, please, open up that door And let me in, my dearest, Dearest Gwen If the Phoenix rose from ashes gone And exists to times beyond. Can a past love be regained? Can a broken heart be tamed? For several years past my love was away And a tear I dropped for every day Every night I have dreamed, that you were in my arms But every morning you were gone..So I screamed Soon time went bye And still I would cry Then one night you were alone But I was unable to match your tone So I watched from a far And to God I asked for an avatar But I was still alone So this is my testament To a time when I could repent So if you at least read these words Than at least you would have heard. You lied and tricked and fooled me Why would that be? I loved you truly with all my heart Almost from the very start. Oh how I miss you, my dearest, dearest, Gwen. How easy it is for me to think back to a time when I thought that you cared And my heart with you I shared. Without your voice ringing in my ears My heart is streaked with horrific tears Oh, how much I do long for you But you lied, so I guess it's through. Yet still I love you. That is something I hope You already knew. Blind Hope In darkness is where we lie. In darkness is where we die. But in that pit I seen a light Piercing the evil night For a moment I was blind And you I couldn't find So I retreated and hid Then I heard your bid For happiness, that was your plead And I knew I was your need. But I was in the darkness of the human heart By the past being ripped apart In the deepest darkest reaches of the human soul The light finally reached its toll. And there it burned brightest of all to help us cope It is named blind hope! The unattainable lady Why are candles from the past impossible to light? When they used to burn unbearably bright? Why can I not walk through a door? Into memories only I wish to explore? I wish things could still be there And a future unaware. Why can I not take the past by her hand? And guide her into a gentle land Why can I not take her into my heart? Where a single beat would start A wondrous rhythmic beat to hear And a future not to fear. Alone Again Why do I not live as others live? Or give as others give? Why can I not receive as others do? This is how the words are true Again a demon covers my eyes. Forcing me to watch stormy skies Keeping me from a world so new That the morning kissing dew- Is afraid to touch her skin upon this Earth And once more again I'll not see a birth Because once more it still bites And the illest of birds are in flight And still my demon is all it has to be Because my demon is me. To Me Why, your special to me for the way you make me feel Because when my heart was broken only you were able to heal Because when I looked into your eyes All I saw were heavenly skies When I kissed your lips, you made my heart skip. Your tenderness was like an eternity of married bliss And when your arms held me tight I knew for your love I would have to fight But, when I looked into your soul I knew you'd reach that heavenly toll. Today I found an angel one special and pure Unfortunately, the encounter was a blur She was Gods in every way And she edified with the suns rays I didn't know any words But my eyes I hope you heard From foreign lands or Gods hands Which I care not Because for you I'd face the juggernaut Words could never express my soul Well not the whole. Future All I want is for one to care for me I care more than life for her that is my decree But for now another would do Because she cares for me not that is true. Nor, does any whom does not share my blood And my soul is soiled in the deepest mud There that is what the evil plan intends But I am worn and cannot defend So I will concede and accept my fate I shall die and wrap my self in hate I will watch as life drains to the ground And oh what a malicious sound Which fills the earth because its death Maybe Adam &Eve should not have had Seth They should have let the world die and go unheard So I would not have this pain to burd Now, I am no longer breathing yet I see I am no longer bleeding, yet I think, how can that be? All I wanted was release But that I can't receive even when I'm deceased. The Dialogue Between Heart and Head This is a letter I'll never have a chance to send How do I speak of the world I live in? How can I possible relish in the fact that only memories keep me warm. The statements that my love for you is eternal are useless words. Because no words can do justice to my feelings. I sit here now trying to open that dialogue yet still I could never say it all. I love you with all my heart and mind entwined in complete totality. My soul has mingled so deeply that it is no longer complete. Yet the pain I feel is so great that if I possible could change the past I would! Unfortunately that is beyond my ability. When I see you I love you more. To smell your hair I would die a thousand deaths. And to kiss your lips I would change the world. Still though you don't care! I remember that when I looked into your eyes faith enveloped me. If only I could make everything possible. Unfortunately again this I am unable to achieve. When speaking of the past it is you that I drift to. And when thinking of the future it is you that I wish for. A million times I have said your name. For eternity it is you that I will wish for on the first and brightest of stars or with candles blown out once a year or 11:11 on the clock. With uncountable numbers everyday it is my words to you I want to say. Is it because you're a woman with an angel's beauty? NO! Or is it because my soul is yours? NO! Perhaps it's your lips that I love to kiss? NO! But I think it's all of these and many others. Most of all I think it is because you I love to hold. For all time it is your heart I've sought. You are part of my every thought. Why can we not build a future? Even though miraculously it appears that Gods on our side, by freeing you from the bonds of another Though people don't change and time is unknown. I need you to believe that there is a chance. I am a man. The one who is destined for you. Even though I've wished for you to no avail. I won't stop loving you! By Eric Z Fox A Lovers Love I love to be close to her She is my special cure She is the embodiment of my eternity She is heavens serenity So by her side I will always await Wishing I controlled fate Touching my hand on her marker of stone This is where I'll make my home The Earth above her tomb shall be my bed And where she lies I'll rest my head This is the place my heart will always save Because this is grave Eric Z. Fox A Moment I remember it was across the street. And you were my hearts treat. Every breath was one. And fear was none. In my arms you were locked. And my soul was knocked. But then Jackie was gone. And I was so wrong. But thanks to Gods Glory He gave me another story. It was about a maiden named Gwen. And against her I'd never defend. It was the last we'd ever spend. Dressed in yellow your heart was mine. And we made love for all time. But never again could I touch your lips. Never again would I feel your kiss. So once again I await a story. But it's up to God so I won't worry. Cookies and Milk If I asked would you take my hand? By your own free will would ya guide me to gentle lands? Would you give me a kiss every hour? And save me from a dark tower All these things I would do for thee A hundred more and times three Cookies are good all alone And often milk just hits the tone But together they are gods treat Jen I think you are so neat So for all ETERNITY I will be yours But you have to share your milk in scores 2/27/07 Her When will I get over her? Or perhaps she'll see. That all she needs is me. May haps someday she'll awake. And my love she'll just take. Maybe she'll put her hand inside mine. And for all of eternity she'll be my bride. My love is of incalculable size. And my devotion will be her prize. A power that would never be consumed. And an undying love that will not be exhumed. No one will ever match my heart. And please just give me one more start HOME Will there ever be an end Will there ever be a time when I do not have to defend When will the loneliness decrease And all my love increase, A place where my love is not pushed away But invited for an eternal stay. Could I invent a science To help keep a world from defiance A place where even gods creatures Can be teachers. If I find this place I'll let you know And try and help it grow And to some this place might be known I just wish I could call it home Copyright ©2003 Eric Zachary Fox INSIDE INSIDE I'M DIEING, OUTSIDE I'M CRYING I FEEL SO MUCH PAIN, HIDEING IN SHAME I CANNOT LIVE BUT I CAN NOT GIVE NO MATTER THE COST, I AM STILL LOST. WILL ANYONE CARE, DOES ANYONE SHARE MY LOSS…. FOR ALL THIS TIME I'VE PAID FOR MY CRIME BUT WHEN WILL FORGIVENESS BE GIVEN TO ME WHEN WILL I BE FREE…. INSIDE I'M DIEING, OUTSIDE I'M CRYING I FEEL SO MUCH PAIN, HIDEING IN SHAME I CANNOT LIVE BUT I CAN NOT GIVE NO MATTER THE COST, I AM STILL LOST. WILL ANYONE CARE, DOES ANYONE SHARE MY LOSS…. DOES ANYONE SEE THE REAL ME WOULD THEY STOP ME IF THEY COULD DO YOU THINK THEY EVEN SHOULD COULDN'T IT BE BETTER IF I WAS DEADER BUT WHAT DOES IT MATTER CAUSE I ONLY GET BADDER INSIDE I'M DIEING, OUTSIDE I'M CRYING I FEEL SO MUCH PAIN, HIDEING IN SHAME I CANNOT LIVE BUT I CAN NOT GIVE NO MATTER THE COST, I AM STILL LOST. WILL ANYONE CARE, DOES ANYONE SHARE MY LOSS…. WOULD ANY GIVE TO ME, SO I COULD BE FREE YOU KNOW I TRIED BUT I ALREADY DIED WILL ANYONE HELP ME, SO I COULD BE FREE BUT IT'S BACK AGAIN, IT'S ALL MY PAIN NOTHING TO DO BUT CRY…. INSIDE I'M DIEING, OUTSIDE I'M CRYING I FEEL SO MUCH PAIN, HIDEING IN SHAME I CANNOT LIVE BUT I CAN NOT GIVE NO MATTER THE COST, I AM STILL LOST. WILL ANYONE CARE, DOES ANYONE SHARE MY LOSS…. FOR ALL THIS TIME I'VE PAID FOR MY CRIME BUT WHEN WILL FORGIVENESS BE GIVEN TO ME WHEN WILL I BE FREE…. By Eric Z Fox inspired by stained "Outside" Stephen King It was probably a dark and stormy night. When Steve King was born to bring all his fright. Be that from a monstrous clown called It. Or a Running Man that won't quit. Reasonably it could be that car Christine. Perhaps Flagg is the unseen fiend. In Pet Sematary it's the cat called church. But in the Eyes of the Dragon a boy sits perched. But his epic is what gets my greatest prays. It's about Roland and his Dark Tower Craze. In the Drawing of the Three Jakes already sunk. While the lobstrosities go du-du-chunk. In the Waste Lands they meet an insane train. And its name is Blane. In Wizard and Glass we hear Roland's tale. How he became a man and started his trail. So from vampires in Salem's Lot. To evils that Richard Bachman thought. Stephen King will always be the horror master. The storyteller that makes your heart beat faster. Cuz Cujo's off his leash and look'n for fun. In the back room you hear, "Redrum..Redrum!" By Eric Z Fox The City Of Sorrows It is a dank and awful place Not held by any one race It has us all in a melting pot Just ready for the right spot A situation to light the fire To start off the bombs higher But this land that time forgot is the feeding grounds for the juggernaut It is a world that God misplaced Or sent here all the waste Because here it is horror And the hour never reaches half past quarter Yes the days go by but time does not It is the land of the Devils rot So this city of useless tomorrows Is the famous city of sorrows. By Eric Z Fox July 10,02 © Copyright 2002 Whisper (UN: kayock at Writing.Com). All rights reserved. Whisper has granted Writing.Com, The Soliloquy of 2002 By Eric Z Fox Within the lit darkness of eternity we await To see if it was St John who saw our fate Through terrorism and war we wish to pass But it's over religion that we clash Be it Solomon's God or that of Christ Or even Allah to stop this heist That steals life and love in the name Of prophets who's faces are gone but all the same. Because it is Abraham who's the father of all our belief And when we see that Moses, Jesus, and Mohamed are relief That our religions are all one Than our souls will finally brighten to its own sun.