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My hands are scrambling to hold on to
What you choose to just throw around
We can't escape this history we created
So why are you trying to put us in the ground
I never once desired this silence
Nor did I want us to give up and choose death
But here I am ignoring all reasons to cry
And fighting this war to take one last breath
I'm not ready to back down from any of this
You can't force me to let go and feel as you do
It's not as easy as you make it seem
Because the truth is, I love you
And I mean that more than you want me to
I mean it more than I want myself to believe
But now it's all out in the open
And now it's my heart I need to retrieve
You stole it the day you took my breath away
Held it hostage in those hands of yours
I can't believe how comfortable it got there
And once it was my tears but now my blood pours
It spills over what we once were
And all the hopes and dreams we once shared
But now they are all just a distant memory
And I try to convince myself that you once cared
But I don't trust myself anymore
So I choose to build up these walls around me
To protect me from all I once believed in
I'm sorry I couldn't be all you wanted me to be
I am only one person who can only be myself
It's too bad I couldn't be enough for you
We could have been so happy, you and I
But I still hope you find happiness in all you do
And as for me, I will give up this fight
And I promise not to ask for anything more
But as my last breath escapes my lips
I will tell you we are no different than we were before
You say that things have changed
Yet they still remain very much the same
No Words Left To Speak
Don't leave me here
I need you to stay
To catch each tear
You caused today
I know you hurt me
But I just can't let go
I want you to see
I need you to know
That I love you
And I always will
And this is true
Completely real until
You let me fall
Out of these dreams
When I give my all
It's not as it seems
There are no words left to speak
You've taken my breath away from me
You've left me here so weak
That I can't let you see
That this doesn't feel right
And things can't be this way
But you can't leave without a fight
To convince me I want to stay
I really don't want to leave
But I don't know why I should stay
Maybe if I could only believe
That you wouldn`t run away
Everything is going to be fine
I`m going to make it trrough
You were never mine
So I no longer need you
Why Did I Let You Catch Me
Why did I let you catch me
When I was falling down
Couldn't I just let myself
Finally hit the ground
Would've been much better there
Instead I held on to you
Let you take control of me
Now it's time we're through
Never thought it would come to this
You left me here with no choice
Thought you would call all the shots
But today I finally have a voice
It's telling you to leave me alone
To cut your losses and be on your way
All this time you caused me pain
I opened my eyes and now I won't stay
I'll walk away and not look back
You were never anything to look back on
Neither were our dreams and memories
Everything we had is too far gone
We can't get any of it back
You can blame yourself for that one
I tried my hardest to make it work
But it looks as though you finally won
You got exactly what you wanted
And that was to be rid of me
I can't say that I am too surprised
This was how it was supposed to be
So I will sit here and cut my losses
And at the same time I'll cut out my heart
I'll lay the pieces down at your feet
And one day it will tear you apart
One day you will realize what you gave up
You may even try to come crawling back
But we both know I won't have that
Because what I need is what you lack
So don't you even bother trying
To make up for all this time we lost
Nothing you do or say will make this up
I've paid far more than my share of the cost
The Way You Make Me Feel
I can no longer wear this disguise
And I know that soon you'll realize
That I'm the one for you
And that you love me too
You bring life to me
And I know that soon you'll see
That you should be here
Where I can have you near
I can't describe the way you make me feel
You make every dream feel real
And I never want to let go
Because I love you so
The Cost of Losing You
Now I must back down
Before I say too much
This can't happen again
We can never lose touch
Time to bite my tongue
And let the blood flow
It won't hurt that bad
I need to let this go
The cost of losing you and this
Is far too much for me to bear
Won't stand in the way this time
'Cause what we have is far too rare
I don't think I could go on
Just the thought of losing you
I can't wrap my mind around
Instead it breaks my heart in two
So I will stop this now
Before it gets too deep
Can't let you have control
You'll never have my heart to keep
The cost of losing you and this
Is far too much for me to bear
Won't stand in the way this time
'Cause what we have is far too rare
Don't say that you're sorry
'Cause it only hurts me more
It's a dagger through my heart
We've been here once before
I'm crying just to reach you
You're dying just to please me
It's bringing us down the same road
It's time to open my eyes in see
The Storm
The rain came down hard that night
Or maybe it was just the sweat forming on my palms
The thunder rolled through that night
Or maybe it was just the sound of my beating heart
The lightning struck me that night
Or maybe it was just the chemistry between us
The storm changed me that night
Or maybe I just wished that it brought a change in me
I Came To You
I came to you
To hold my hand
I came to you
To understand
I came to you
To make my day
I came to you
To make me stay
I came to you
To see inside
I came to you
To run and hide
I came to you
To wipe my tears
I came to you
To hold my fears
I came to you
To open my soul
I came to you
To take control
I came to you
To let me fall
I came to you
To give my all
I came to you
To rip me apart
I came to you
To break my heart
Open My Eyes and See
The words I speak are so powerful and strong
But when I go to leave it feels too wrong
They say I should turn my back and walk away
But for some crazy reason I always stay
And I put up with your pathetic lies
That I seem to believe when I look into your eyes
I now realize that your heart is so cold and empty
With my hands tied behind my back I can't be free
People tell me you're no good for me
And that I should open my eyes and see
That all this time you have caused me pain
And that with you I have nothing to gain
You slap me in the face and I fall to the ground
I go for many days without being found
You come to my rescue like you always do
And I realize I'm still in love with you
They say that it's time for me to go
But before I do I need you to know
That you are my life and for I would die
But it turns out I am too weak so instead I cry
Not because I have lost you but because I have lost me
I was too blind that I couldn't see
That the ones that will remain in my heart
Are the ones who have been there from the start
People tell me you're no good for me
And that I should open my eyes and see
That all this time you have caused me pain
And that with you I have nothing to gain
I know I may have lost them forever
But maybe one day we can be together
Like we were once before
I couldn't ask for anything more
People tell me you're no good for me
And that I should open my eyes and see
That all this time you have caused me pain
And that with you I have nothing to gain
I Still Love You
I have to let go
Of what was never there
I now know
That you didn't care
It took me too long
To see things clear
Now I know I belong
Somewhere other than here
Where that is
I just don't know
But I do know this
I have to go
I'll never forget you
You mean too much to me
And this is true
Maybe one day you'll see
So now I'll say goodbye
It's time to walk away
I gave my best try
To end this all today
Mean This Much To Me
I know this wasn't meant to be
And that I could be on my way
But I won't leave until you see
Every reason I need to stay
I would stop breathing without you
I need you to push me along
Without you I wouldn't make it through
Because with you is where I belong
I know it's hard for you to believe
That you mean this much to me
But it's time for you to leave
So I guess you'll never see
My heart stops beating when you're gone
I need to learn to live on my own
I have to figure out what's going on
It turns out I've always been alone
I always thought I needed you
But it seems as though I was wrong
So now I think we're finally through
Because now I know where I belong
So now it's time to say goodbye
I hope that life treats you right
I know I won't have to cry
Because now you're out of sight