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We made love without protection Something we shouldn't have of neglected It's four weeks later and I'm pregnant You have a girlfriend to whom your engaged If she found out she'd be enraged But for a night of fun you might have to pay

You have no clue what it's like to be a bastard To live your life as a disaster To try to find a man who was never there To find a man that will never care Daddy,why weren't you there

Where have you been? Will I ever see you and if so when? I picture your face and then it disappears again Is this a game I will ever win or is it time for me to give in?

In '99' your heart was mine If only I could turn back time Your heart beating next to mine Us making love time after time You running your fingers through my hair Roling over in the midst of night and knowing your there Then one day everything changed I'll never be able to forget that day A permanent memory in my mind The day I found out love is blind

The nights I've cried for a mother The nights I've prayed for a father Either way I don't know why I bothered The role of a mother played by a drunk Who's only worry is getting crunked I don't know the man by whom I was fathered A man I've tried to find but does nothing but hide

My daughter doesn't even know I'm her mother She thinks her father is her brother I know what your thinking,thats fucked up,right?!? That it might be but its my life Your probably wondering how all of this pain came about in my life His name is Robbie,the worst mistake of my life If I ever saw him again I'd probably slit his throat But not before I took a nice healthy shit down his throat

Here it is:end of November I haven't written a lick since I've been sober I keep on rereading my poems,over and over Wondering if my writing career that never started has ended To all of you reading,I hope you don't get offended While your spending time with mom and dad I was busy writing because it was all I had While your mom and dad were lending hands and had open ears My mom was assaulting me and reducing me to tears I was letting the paper soak up my tears Now,I've been doing it for years Now,that I think about it Why would you care at all Forget that you read this at all

Roses are red Violets are blue I'm in love But not wih you We broke up You thought I cried But all it was Was another guy You told your friends, I was a trick I told mine, You had a weak dick You thought that you played me But the jokes on you Ha!ha!You got played too

I thought you were different from all the other guys Then I found out everything you said was a lie You left without a word Not even a simple goodbye It turns out your just like all the other guys

Since you moved,hundreds of miles away It seems everything between us has changed I realize now things will never be the same Soon enough you will forget my name For now I will cherish what's left until that day