Vampire Romance's blog: "my poems"

when loving him so much that is hurts when i am trying to run and hide just to escape the hurt inside with a depth of fear it may not always be near but that is something that i may not endure and is something that no drug can cure i look in the mirror and see that changes have taken place i have forced can it all just be untrue then every time i try to escape my mind it only ends up back on you i tell my self to not love you but i know it now i can not do because i end up just needing you

my stomach hurts so much to think of him and it makes me so sick it hurts so bad to get over someone you love so much it always make me want to cry it is so hard when you love someone and the just want to play with your mind but you still love them so much it hurts that someone makes you wait for an answer and you know you will never get it or when you thought you were ready but then they just werent that is when love just hurts so much its when you show them how much you love them but they just ignore it but when you are with the person the one you love so much he seems not to care at all he will just leave without looking back to even say good bye that is when love hurts even worse it takes the knife and it stabs you in the heart i hope i never love like this again only because i fail every time and in the end it just hurt so damn much

I hate this feeling a feeling of emptiness i have ever felt before its like a sad happiness i love him but he dont care he use to though but he could not stay the same as i have said life is not great this year is the very worst he forgot about love i use to come first i use to get the look i use to get the smile i use to get the time i use to feel the love now all i feel is the miss i miss the looks i miss the smiles i miss the time we shared i miss the love we had i miss it all but i know that it will never come back

breathing hurts to much and blinking falls the tears the truth hurts him so much but he like to hurt me with his lies receiving my love was not good enough i guess and he was much to selfish to give all of his love to me i guess i want to much so much more ,more then i guess he could ever give to me i cant just keep i just cant keep thoughts locked in a box for i take them with me were ever i may go all of my secrets my fears my love because anymore i dont want anybody to know anything walking hurts my back talking hurts my tongue but with the blood peeling my skin there is no more hurt im done ©©©Julie Cooper 2007