LiLLatinaHoney's blog: "My Poems N The Way i Feel"

all i ever wanted was to knoe wat its like to be in love to have the feeling that i truely cared about sumone..i wish i never wanted this becuz i fell for a guy that will never wanna be with me and the pain my heart is putting me through is cruel and unjust, i just wish my feelings for him would go away, im so tired of hurting this way :-(

How come you decided to let me go? Theres nights where i stay up thinking of you, I still rememeber all the times you made me cry, laugh, Made me angry but yet i still love you so, How can i hate you but still want you in my life? I cant understand why im not enough 2 satisfy your heart. But why is my heart so satisfied by you? I look so foolish to you when i cry, Because all you see is weakness inside, I live in fear of having you near, Only because you dont love me, You took advantage of the way i feel just so you can feel important, But no gurl wants you the way i do, My love for you is faithful and true, After all the pain and heartbreak youve put me through, How come im still so in love with you?

I love you more than youll ever knoe, The pain my heart is putting me through is cruel and unjust, I feel for you even though you make me fall to my knees in defeat and cry my soul out, As i sit here with a river of tears and pain run down my face, I feel my heart shatter into tiny pieces, So tiny i dont think i could ever put them back together, I gave you my body, Then i gave you my heart, But now it seems you have my soul, Even when i try to be free from the way i feel, You drag me back, To the hell i tried so desperately to escape, Here i go again bending to you every wish, I do it becuz i care, But i hate the fact that your never there when i need you to be, Im always here for you when you ask me to be, Its all about control for you, If i dont let you have your way, You have no use for me, Im sorry in the deepest way, I wish these feelings i have for you would just go away