I have been struggling with my weight for about 16 years.. I have tried everything under tha sun.. I have tried pills after pills and I was walking everyday.. I try to do cardio but I have to stop after a few minutes because my back starts to shoot sharp pains thru my spine.. I cant afford to get a personal trainer or pay for a gym membership.. I get really depressed because i cant seem to get rid of my pouch.. its around my lower ab.. if i have those lol.. But I cant get it right... It depresses me so much i just want to stay in tha house.. i dont like to go out much because i am constantly worrying if ppl are looking at me and making fun of me.. I feel like everyone that looks at me is just lookin at my fat butt and judging me.. Im afraid my husband will leave if a better female came along.. also i guess my biggest thing is that Diabetes runs in my family and i want to be healthy for my kids.. I get so depressed sometimes that i dont want to be here anymore.. I dont know why it is such an obsession with me.. but i just want to be beautiful and not have to worry... which i do alot.. if anyone would like to leave a comment feel free .. i just had to get this off my chest.. love ya all
