Lexi's blog: "My personal crap"

Well I'm back!!!! Had to take a trip to the county :( but at least now I got my probation taken care of YAY!!!! No more warrants on me :D I missed you all so much!! I hope everyone has been doin good. Lovers Ya, Lexi

Well I just got my first birthday card in 29 years from my real father....I dont know if Im happy or sad, I guess kinda both..Im confused as hell right now, I think I might get drunk, I did get 200 bucks...

well, I have NEVER ever known my real father, so I looked him up on the internet the other day and got his number and called. well I got voicemail and left a message, blah, blah...well, he called em and I talked to him for the first time in my life, I mean seriously, I have never even sen apic of him or nothing. So ling story short, I talked to him and he was happy to hear from me, yeah I know maury moment right, but I got pics from him and I am shocked, seriously, look at this shit, Im sorry Im just emotional as hell right now, I dont know how I should feel.... but look at these pics...

Well its been like forever since I've posted a new blog entry, and I'm bored tonight so I thought I'd ramble a lil bit, I know, YAY! :P Well to let the people who actually read my crap, I'll let ya know a little bit of whats been goin on with me.(although not much)I've gotten engaged, maybe will be getting married in September, if he can put up with my crazy ass till then, lol, we'll see... I wish all my fu-friends could come :( . Still no job, but my fiance doesn't want me to work, but Im tellin ya, Im sick of sittin at home!!!! But hey, ya never know. Well my fiance works out of town all the time so I may see him once a month if I'm lucky, so that kinda sucks, but on the good side, because I don't see him that much, he cant get on my nerves lmao, but I do get a lil lonely, but there is always phone sex!!!! LMAO well other than that, not much goin on, just tryin to be Suzy Homemaker, lol. Well as always, thanks for readin my crap :)Much love to you all!!!!

Well, I just broke up with my Bf, via voicemail cause he didnt answer..... But Im just tired of his little games. He tries to make me a weak minded bitch that will hang on his as, ya know, put up with him talkin shit to me and stuff, well, not this bitch, I tried to work it out with him, but he still wants some pushover bitch, and that is just not me. LMFAO just last night he got mad at me because I wouldnt take his shit and told me I acted like New York, ya know that bitch from flava of love, well I took it as a compliment because I DO not and WILL not let a man run me, so if I act like her so be it. I just do not take shit. Im not the finest/sexiest girl out there, but I WILL BE DAMNED if some bastard tries to break me down. So I kindly told him earlier that it was over, and thats the way it should be because he has shown me he is not gonna change....As always, much love and thanks for readin my crap! ~Lexi

I thought I was happy, and last night it came to a crashing end. Im so upset because I let my gard down, and as I should have known, i would be let down,,,,like always. I m just sooo pissed, upset, disappointed,sad, every kind of emotion is going through me right now, I cried myself to sleep last night. I mean, after 2 years of being single and cautious, I let myself get feelings for someone, only to be slapped in the face. Again. I dont know what Im gonna do, I feel like giving up altogether, Im sooo mad, I just wanna call him and cuss him out, which I think I will, Im not an easy bitch to let someone see my feelings, and I did, only to get hurt. Maybe Im drunk, but I WILL let that asshole have a piece of my mind, it only seems right, I mean, he hurt me, so now Im about to try to hurt him. Only seems fair, ya know? As always, thanks for readin my shit! *Hugs*

Well if yall cant tell, Ive been on a sentimental kick, but I cant help it, it would have been our 8 year anniversary, so Im depressed, so seal with it. J/K I DO SO love him still, and it is my fault we broke up, I was being a dumbass, and I kick myself in th eass everyday for the bullshit.*sighs* But there isnt really much I can do, except be depressed, so I am, and mixing that with alcohol, not good, Ill probly end up calling him later, but I hope not5 , because I broke his heart, but on the other hand, he did leave me to go to South Carolina, and didnt give a shit what I thought, so who knows, its over , but its hard to move on sometimes, he is the only "dad" my daughter has known, not that she thinks he is her dad, but he has always loved her like his own, even though she is mixed.. so yeah he is a good man, and I wil ALWAYS love him,,,,,blah Im just rambling, but its true..D.J. has my heart and it will take a hella man to take that from him...as always, much love to those who read this.~Lexi

Oh I miss him sooo badd right now...Its Close to our would have been 8 year anniversary, I dont know, I was a dumb ass, we broke up because I didnt want to move to SC, Im just depressed and I cant get over it...I saw him a couple months ago(him and my dad are good friends) and it broke my heart, I cried for hours after, and according to my dada he cried too...but he ha a new girl, so Im just gonna continue to stay away, but I really do miss hin, sooo much I cant begin to explain..oh well, life goes on, just some things remind me of him and it hurts to remind me I let him go...as always thanx for readin my crap

Damn I knew I shouldnt have checked my mail, sure enough, Im having a good day and bam, a letter from my douche-bag ex in prison, fucker is tryin to manipulate me from behind bars!!!LMAO its just aggravating as hell, being told I turned my back on him, WTF???? how many times do I have to tell his mom(because I dont write back)to tell him we were broke up when he was arrested, sheesh!!!!! God he is delusional as hell if he thinks I ever loved him OR would even consider getting back with him, yeah right!!!! Anyways, just wanted to vent!!!

PHYSICAL DESCRIPTION YOB: 1979 RACE: WHITE GENDER: MALE HEIGHT: 5'07'' WEIGHT: 189 EYE COLOR: UNKNOWN HAIR COLOR: UNKNOWN SCARS, MARKS, TATTOOS INCARCERATION DETAILS MAJOR OFFENSE: POSS METHAMPHETAMINE MOST RECENT INSTITUTION: DODGE STATE PRISON MAX POSSIBLE RELEASE DATE: 07/15/2011 TENTATIVE PAROLE MONTH: 11/2009 ACTUAL RELEASE DATE: CURRENTLY SERVING CURRENT STATUS: ACTIVE well I got my info wrong, hes not up for parole till 2009....thank God, I still ahve a long way to go:D before I have to deal with his craziness, hopefully I stil wont be in the same spot