well im not real sure how to do this so bear with me.since the incident that happened to me my past has truely become my present and possble future.i have little recollection of things from the past so i feel god has given me a chance to form my past as i would of liked it to of been.everyday now since my return has become the only past i really remember.its called long term memory loss.
when it will return ,or if,i dont know but i do know ive been given a second chance to redo my life.there are people that ive been told i knew but dont remember,this is my chance to possably reform that into a better relationship becouse i have no need to forgive or forget,its gone.maybe thats the reason for what happened to me,there were things i could forgive but not forget,now i have the chance.
ive read my blogs and though some seem so familiar the events seem like vauge dreams.some day i may be able to remember them but for now,ive got the chance to maybe redo some of the mistakes i had done before.its strange in a way becouse of so much i cannt remember and im sure theres alot id love to remember ,buti nleft to burry ghosts and it appears i have done just that
well,if i offend some by not remembering them,im sorry,lets start again,for those i do remember,i hope if theres anything that was done in th past that it can be forgiven becouse,its definatly forgotten.
in a way,its a shame everyone cannt be afflicted with this.no one would fight becouse there would be no reason,no one would hate,becouse the innerbreading of racial hate would be forgotten.
just maybe,maybe,the world could coexist in love and forgiveness and maybe ,just maybe,the human race would stop condemming itsself to an endless hell.
