today and yesterday i've been not wanting to go to bed tell late the next day today and yesterday i have been up 36 hours and only got 17 hours of sleep i know thats bad but i know ive got a sleep deprivation problem and i know for a fact or i'm sure i've got a small case of depetion cuz my brother went through it and i think he still has it and my cuzan tried to hang himself .... deep stuff i have friend that went through it too and two ither i think have it too i'm extreamly emotonal and things realy efecte me i've been a little down more laitly too i know that its not good that i'm not geting enof sleep but i cant help it some times and a few monts b4 i wasnt sleeping good it was almost 3 weeks that i wasnt sleeping good i was sleeping on and off and felt real lazy cuz of it but wait theres more to the story my dad used to work on the road when i was littler but quit cuz he was missing so much of my child hood and when i was 5 my mom and him got divorsed yes it still tares at me from the inside cuz naturaly i wish they could get back together cuz it would make dad happy but u see my moms re-merried and she's happy w/ my step dad and i can see that so its very hard some times when i hear dad talking about how the used to love eachother SO much and to see that look in his eyes it eats at me humph...
