Jess TAKEN's blog: "My Obituary"

In these moments All I can see is you The background becomes blurry And I am entranced by you. Laying here next to you everything goes away There is no one else in the world That I can lay with all day. Looking into your eyes I feel like everything will be alright As long as I have you To always walk beside. And as long as my hand Is closed in your hand Nothing can hurt me No matter where I stand. In these moments When you are all I see I don’t want to close my eyes And I don’t want to go to sleep. The worries vanish Concerns all go away I’ve never been so at peace Then when its with you that I lay. When you kiss me I melt And I seem to fall into you Everything that I have inside Just turns into mush and goo. In these moments Laying wrapped in your arms so tight I need nothing at all Just stay with me tonight.

my love for you is strong it is intense and deep and fierce I love you with all my heart and without conditions, my dear. I will love you no matter how old or broke, or down you get I will love you no matter how many times the sun rises or the sun will set. I will touch your face gently for years in moments to pass and I will look at you with love always because this is a love that lasts. I am vulnerable forever in your eyes since I have given my heart to you and all I need is you beside me and there is not a thing I cant do. Forever I will appreciate you I will value every last kiss will not take anything for granted not a single touch, word, or glimpse. Your voice on the phone is more than just a voice to me always brings a smile to my face bigger than you could ever see. The way you hold my hand when we're driving in the car keeps my nerves settled no matter how far from home we are. My favorite is the way you kiss me like it means something so much more sometimes it even makes me dizzy Ive never felt like this before. I love you baby and I can safely say that I will forever no matter what happens in the end as long as we have always eachother

pain lies in those eyes so deep and blue misery and struggle and bound by you. tied at the throat no air to breathe limp and pale no sights to see. angerless, motionless hate cannot feel nothingness is filling and death becomes real. air is not reaching deep deflated gasps become what you are defeat all of your laughs. the pain lasts too long go away crying end the hopless misery please stop trying. dont breathe, dont think just hate and despise kill yourself daily only on the inside.

:Violation Of Insanity: Its insanity that lies beneath the wicked, cracked and twisted faces that direct the traffic of thoughts flowing throught dark and dismal places. It roots itself into the weakend minds throwing all emotion out of control letting all of the demons loose to feast apon a tortured soul. The mind is a playground built for horrific persuasion the monsters dig in their tallons a recipe for perverse invasion. Cold on the inside is akward there is an ill feeling about a voice that cannot speak the language yet in tongues continues to shout. Memories and thoughts being eaten away the shell remains unchanged a blank expression on the face of hope of a new day. No surrender to the miserey no light of an end just tortured thoughts and fiends only wounds and scars to mend. Veins hold vile toxins that flow throughout existance venom from the beast that held the least resistance. The twisted faces linger as aftermath accompanies the storm relentless waves of parasites in the eyes begin to swarm. Cleansing in the inferno ablaze in pain and innocence desire to terminate all of that which denies deliverance.

in fear and in thought in death and dying lies cold and hate misery and crying. the dark and pain no dawn no sun aching bones and sores and no space to run. rivers of blood deep fast and thick spoils of war dying off so quick. hate with passion streets buried by death smell of reckoning with every single breath. explosions deafen even those that do not hear torture and agony as flesh begins to sear. burning cloths to brighten the darkest days come all hope is now gone lay down and be numb.

:Breathing Deep: In silent moments not a word said just fingers intwined like cloth and thread. Eyes smiling deeply into eachother beating hearts sync dancing with one another. Skin like silk and satan just craving to be touched legs interlaced together tight in intense clutch. Heavy hot breaths quickly in and out biting down on lips to keep screaming out. Covered in salty sweat nails graze when flesh smells in the air above of pleasure and arousal so fresh. Muscles tensen up just to relax again eyes roll backwards brains start to spin. Climax begins to shudder and shake the very essence all motion is pleasure explosion begins without resistance. Quivering is the aftermath two bodies lay in a heap no movement or sound except for breathing deep.

:Cast aside: Pain and anguish like achy bones tears overflowing from being alone. Forgotten, unnoticed and entirely cast aside when I need you I get left behind. Im available to you always at your beck and call but when I just need to talk you always leave me to fall. Im here for more than a fair weathered host what are you doing? when I need you the most? A convenience to you only for when you need me I thought it was different a two way street. I suppose I was wrong Im still just a doormat all the primping and priming wasnt for you to notice that. The grand finalle of defeat the lack of feeling or regret there is nothing but rejection to be found how easily one can forget. I gave in and gave all and got left behind saw nothing out of my efforts except for being cast aside.

Use me abuse me throw me around hurt me fuck me bury me deep down. Rip me tear me ressurect my soul hear me teach me to dig my own hole. End me begin me let my heart mend hunt me kill me and use me again.

your eyes scream in pain your lips are ice the color in your skin now gone your shivering constant and precise. Your skin is stained with innocent blood as he hits you yet again the madness in your eyes as your heart tries to mend. All of your hate is building up inside your eyes are cloudy and grey theres no innocence left anymore as your soul starts to fade away. You dont cry anymore you barely even speak weakend by the fist and silenced like a sheep.

Too long to wait forever passes so fast i cant hold onto a memory of a day thats already passed. promises have been broken yet more are still made to break months of sitting here alone how much longer do we have to wait? Nervous feelings lie beneath my stomach always in knots when do I get what was promised? just to end the doubtful thoughts. Hope starts to evaporate into the cold night air my heart questions your motives what intentions are lying in there? Endless excuses and reasons in an attempt to explain it will happen someday, not today but till then just endure the pain. find myself crying too often over meaningless fights isnt our happiness more important than whos wrong or whos right? In the end what is left? What is there to hold onto? The fleeting hope and painful love? Yet I cant seem to let go of you. Heart encased by agony fleeing comes to mind run away from the hurt somewhere far away to hide. The games are ending here the checkers are all gone maybe waiting was right back then but waiting now is just horribly wrong.