Everyone asks me why I call myself Jayded and yes I know I spell it different than its supposed to be.
But to put it simply...... life, love and men have jaded me. And I honestly believe at my age everyone is a little jaded , its what molds us to who we are so I dont see it in a bad way.
When you have been betrayed, used, pushed around, walked on and just plain hurt by someone it will make you jaded a little everytime. But I wouldnt trade any of my experiences cause it makes me the strong women I am today.
Does it mean that every guy that comes into my life is going to pay for the mistakes of the last relationship? NO..........Every relationship that has ever ended good or bad ive learned something from it and moved on and tried to make it better the next time, its all you can do. But everytime Ive been hurt my heart gets a little more guarded and harder to get to. I dont wear it on my sleeve like I used to for someone to crush. The one that grabs a hold of my heart again will be one special person cause it will take alot of time, patience and understanding of who I truly am inside. But I will never give up on love, my heart will always be open to the right person even if it means getting hurt again, its worth the risk.
I will always trust until you give me a reason not to. Once its lost, you can never get it back.
I have a huge heart and I am always willing to lend a helping hand where ever I can until its taken advantage of then its no longer yours.
I used to try and please everyone and I was the one who suffered for it while everyone else was happy but not anymore. . You can not be happy with anyone or make anyone else happy unless you are happy with yourself first.
I used to be too easy going and let people walk all over me but not so much anymore. If I get less than I deserve from anyone Ill let you know it.
Everyone makes mistakes and life is all about making mistakes and learning from them but if you tend to make the same mistakes over and over then there is a problem. I will always give someone the benefit of the doubt and give them a second chance but I have no room or time for third chances.
Its taken a long time gettin here but I know who I am, what I want and where Im going. Question is, are you along for the ride?
