SherryMH's blog: "My Mother"

You were my first love.  The one who carried me inside you for 8 1/2 months.  The one who held me first.  The one who gave me nourishment.  The one who rocked me to sleep every night.  The one who kissed away every boo boo.  The one whom I first smiled at.  The one whom I first spoke to.  The one whom I first toddled to.  The one whom I first ran to.  The one whom I first confided in.  The one who held my hand when I hurt the most.  The one who always had a special snack for me after school every day.  The one who made me feel like everything would be ok after my  first break up. The one who fixed my make up and fixed my hair when I got married.  The one who held my hand when I gave birth to my only child.  The one who stayed with me in those first weeks of motherhood.  The one who taught me how to be a good mother by leading by example.  The one who was by my side when I lost my father even though you had been divorced for years.  The one who came to me when my marriage was falling apart.  The one who held me close as I cried so many tears.  The one who was with me when my first grandchild took his first breath. The one who helped me adjust to life after my divorce.  The one who was with me when my second grandchild came into this world.  The one who cried with me when my grandson was diagnosed with cystic fibrosis.  The one who stood by me through every single decision I have ever made in my life.  The one who kept me from falling apart through any rough spot I encountered.  The one who always made everything alright when it seemed nothing could.  You were my #1 fan.  You were my strength through hard times.  You were my cheerleader, helping me reach goals I didn't think possible.  You were the single most influentual person in my life.  I can never put into words just how very much you will always mean to me.  There has never been, nor will ever be anyone in my life as special as you.  I know so many people who have never had the kind of relationship I have been so very blessed to have with you.  I can't imagine what it would have been like without you.  You shaped me into the woman I am today and I hope that when you look down at me you are proud of this person you created.  

You were my guiding light, my sunshine, my silver lining, my inspiration, my comforter, my strength.  You were my best friend.

Life will never ever be the same now.  A huge chunk of my heart is gone.  The biggest part.  I know you are no longer suffering, but I would give anything to hear your voice, see your smile, hear your giggle, see you walk into a room, feel your arms wrapped around me, feel your kiss on my forehead, and feel your hand in mine.  

Little mama I was so very very lucky...blessed to be able to call you Mom.  For the rest of my life there will never be a day that goes by that I won't think of you and miss you. I had the best little mama in the whole world.  

You were my first love.