My mother passed away on June 28th 2011. It was sudden and most definitely not expected. I'm angry, hurt and I don't know what the hell I'm doing.
I wrote this tonight for her. I'm not worried about the flow. This is what I'm feeling, and the best way I could express it.
MOM
Lord knows how you made me crazy.
Frustrated me to no end.
The thing was though.
I never questioned you were my best friend.
Walked beside me and held my hand.
Always supported me
Loved me with everything you had.
Showed me that I was worthy.
Now I can't pick up the phone
Dial your number and hear your voice.
For you have left me here
Without a word or a choice.
I can usually find the words
For a story or a book.
But to tell you how I love you
I only needed to give you a look.
Now I can't see your face
Or put my arms around you.
Nothing makes sense to me
I do not have a clue.
Where do I go from here?
How do I go on?
Mom, I miss you so much
I can't accept that you're gone.
Maybe I'm being selfish.
I don't really know.
I realize you're no longer suffering.
I know you had to go.
I miss your jokes,
The way you'd make me see
You loved each and every one of us.
The way you made us feel worthy.
