ok,i decided im gonna start blogging...im not a bad person just i guess confused and maybe some comments from people i dont know will help...if not give you guys something to read......ok where to begin....
Ok im not gonna lie...i once was very very..i dont wanna say slutty but ok i lacked attention at home...i been with the same man for almost 18 yrs.we got 2 great kids but my life sux....i cant even as much as talk to friends with him around so i went elsewhere for attention.....
Bout a yr and a half ago,he up and moved away leaving me behind to choose to either move or stay in my town..i chose to move away from my friends cause he was here with my kids...so new life(i dont deal good with change)so it was fine for a few months then bout a yr ago i met this guy(on AFF)sounds bad i know but i was bored and looking again for the attention i craved...well i didnt realize when i found a boytoy i found a Best friend....i didnt relize i waited a lifetime for a friend like him...we were each others shoulder to cry on when my life at home was bad and his life was falling apart.....we were extremely close....BEST FRIENDS.....
We changed each other for the good,well recently he decided to start dating again(his gf of 3 yrs broke up with him last yr)Well he always told me noone would ever come between us...I was #1 in his life,his best friend forever...so once he went on his 1st date with this new threat to me,he told her upfront bout me and she is was kool with it...she is fine with mine and his relationship but as much as i tell him im ok with her im not...i am unsure if im more afraid of losing his friendship or stopping what we do...he gives me more than everything i always wanted......So i wish i knew what was wrong with me !!!!!!!!!!!!
