My Little One
When I noticed the change of my body,
I suspected that there was something
inside of me, a tiny little one.
Two months passed by it confirmed,
that you were growing inside of me.
I was excited and so was your Daddy,
Our hearts jumped with happiness and joy.
We were a little apprehensive of how our lives would be,
But we loved you very much from the moment,
We knew you were there growing.
And then one day unexpected night came,
I noticed that something was wrong,
Blood spot came out scared but calm.
I went to sleep but cramps woke me up,
Bleeding was present red in colour.
Your Dad took me to the Midwifery Care,
I lied down on the table scared and hopeful.
The Midwife looked for you but you weren’t there.
I put my hands on my tummy to feel your home,
But it wasn’t there where it was supposed to be.
I couldn’t accept that you were gone,
We listened to your heartbeat with Doppler,
But never heard your heartbeat. I was devastated.
The midwife said there’s no baby I’m sorry,
Is there anything I can do for you?
I sat on a chair silent your Dad beside me,
My heart was beating so fast I couldn’t breath,
I started crying with your Dad he comforted me.
For fourteen weeks I had carried you with me,
Inside you were comfortable and warm.
When you said goodbye I didn’t have a chance,
To say Hello you slipped beyond my grasp.
Though I never held you in my arms,
But I carried you from the beginning to end.
Though I never knew you were a girl or a boy,
We have a name ready for you Mathilda or Matthew,
Your Dad and I decided to call you Matty.
You were a part of me I’ll remember forever,
And my love for you is constant and pure…
By Agring Sherwood
