JD STYLES's blog: "Happy B-Day Princess!!!!!!"

I LOOOOVE cooking. Especially when my lil one is "helping" LoL

She'll be 8yrs old tomorrow, and I can't help but wonder how many more of these fun days I have left before I go from SUPERDADDY to DROP ME OFF AROUND THE CORNER. LoL I guess I'll just have to keep enjoying it as I have for the past 8yrs. I know how precious these times are and that they'll never happen again. Every one is different and special.

I hate the fact that I dont get to be with her everyday. Times like these make me, if only for a second, wonder wether or not I made the right choice in leaving her mother. Then, I quickly gather myself, put on my happy "I did the right thing" face on and keep on trucking. I know I'll never agree with my own decision 100% , but I know that 90% of me knows it was the right choice. I keep telling myself she would have suffered much more if I had stayed and been unhappy and fighting with her mother all the time. My bitterness towards my x-wife would have swallowed me whole and destroyed our family eventually, so I guess its better this way.

Geez, here I was talking about my daughter's special day and somehow I made it about me.lol

Anywho...her special day is tomorrow and she'll be one step closer to being a teen.lol I do so dread the day she stops talking to me and starts talking to her girlfriends...and lets not even get started on the boys!!! LoL A petite brunet with long curly hair and hazle/green eyes...grrrrrr I'm gonna kill somebody by the time she reaches high school senior prom.lol

Ok, back to reality...she'll be a big 8yr old!!! She just won the citizen of the month award in her new school for finding and returning a walet with, get this, "5 cents and a note" in it.lol Its the thought that counts. Her good deeds and polite maner has earned her this award even though 3 weeks ago, she was the new kid who just came from a wanna-be "private" school in the middle of the ghetto, into this uper-middle class, "I'm way better than anyone here" school district. And so they awarded her with the highest honor in the school!!! Not bad for a 3rd grader if I may say so :-) All those days haulin her into church since her birth and the many times I bit my tongue and did the right thing in front of her is all worth while I guess.lol. And YES, I'm bragging :-P

I guess its my oldschool ways but, I dont believe lil girls should be doing the whole BRITNEY SPEARS thing. Pop music is ok if u keep a check on them and the singers/actors they're watching. "High School Musical" is her fav and I think Disney did a great job on both Parts 1 and 2.

Anyway...I'm rambling.lol

I'm just happy I get to see her 26 weeks out of 52 in a yr...thats EVERY OTHER DAY for you slow folks.lol I fought very hard in court for a whole year, drained all my accounts and even sold things after I could borrow no more, just to pay the Lawyer who was good enough to get me this much time with her. I thank god everytime I pray with her before she goes to sleep.

Ok, enough sad stuff. lol

The point of all this babling is that I'm very happy I have my princess with me for as much as I do, and that she is not one more year older tomorrow...she's just another day older, and I have many more days to cook, play and selebrate our lives together.

So happy birthday sweety. No matter how old u turn over the years, u'r never gonna stop being little monkey, daddy's little girl :-)