inlovebabygirl4ever's blog: "my life"

men are so.... they start talking to saying babe babyy hun and so forth then they start talking about sex like thats the only thing to talk about. GET A LIFE!!! I dont want to talk about sex all the time. there is more to a girl then her looks or just wanting sex. and if u have kids be a man and stepp up they need u in their lives too. why treat a girl like she is just a piece of meat? it will come all back to u. and dont get on here and pretend to be single when u have some one. it is still cheating. You will have more friends by being honest then u will by lieing because they will find out and never talk to u again. so GROW UP!!!

i am so bored and alone and i feel like crying. why are men such pigs? why do they want to plain us? so much pain.... is there any way to get rid of this pain inside. i want to die just to end it. every one listens but does not listen. they see but they do not see they speak but they do not speak...what to do? listen see and speak of the things that are not. we all might do better in this world. so many secrets waiting to be let out..any one willing to do it? no they only want to judge people for looks. thats not important. look for what is in the inside. personality humor some of the best people in the world are those we judge. do we not all have bones 1 heart brain and so forth under neith the skin? do we not bleed when we are cut? do we not cry when we are hurt do we not laugh at something funny? people wake up! my heart is so cold and hard but at the same time wanting to be sweet and caring. i am so confused. i want this wall to come down. can any one do that? so far no. so i will go on hurting and crying in side with saddness. may one day i will find that some one who can remove this wall and make me trust people again show things that i have never seen before. i feel so twisted and yet simple. can that special person open all the doors again? oh god please help with this pain of sorrow. well enough for now

i am so depressed right know i think my husband may be trying to cheat on me when i have been faitful and honest about things. every one knows that i am married. but now for the past year i have not been happily married. i lost my uncle in 98 a friend in 2003 lost my brother in 2004 lost my husbands grandpa and a nother uncle of mine in 2005 now i am about to loose my grandpa and thats not everyone. i wish i could smile and laugh again. maybe find some one who change and brighten my world back up it is so gray and dark i cannt tell one day from the other some times. i thought i had found some one that made me happier and laughing again but after 2 days i found out he lied to me. i dont go for those who lie to me. why are all guys the same? i hope one day i will find that some one, or may be i have found him just dont give him much of a chance. i dont know. good luck to all the others out there searching for that true love soulmate.

i have been married for 3 years but i am no longer happy. every guy has proven to be jerks. lieing to me all the time. and ever man keeps proving me right. always out for sex or want to know about my privite sex life. come on some one prove me wrong just once. why cannt there be a sweet guy out there for me. some one to make me smile and laugh again?some one i can look in to their eyes and see how much they love me and want to be with me for me. i may not look the best but i have a good personality. i wish some one could see me for that. its not whats on the out side it is whats on the inside that counts. i have built this wall around my heart because of guys i dont trust any of them but may be one day i will find the one who can change all that. at times i feel like i be betterof dead just to please alot of people. but i dont want to feel that any more. please god one day send my angel from heaven to show me the love i deserve.