Well,as many of you know, I'm in the midst of a divorce. It's been a long time coming and I finally asked him to leave. I am sorry for the pain that I've caused him, yet content with my decision. Perhaps some understand as others will belittle. Either way, I will go on. I miss my step children more than I can express and I try to keep it in for the sake of everyone around me. Alot of people don't agree with the decisions I'm making in my life right now, but it's my life to live. I'm not harming my children nor am I doing anything illegal so others will learn to cope. As i always say, if you aren't feeding me, fucking me, or paying my bills, don't try telling me what to do. Offer an opinion any time, then back off and let me do what I will with it. If I fall on my ass, it's for me to pick myself up again and keep going. Real friends will be there regardless, possibly laughing as I hit my ass, but there with a hand up tellling me to try again...lol... yeah ya'll know who you are... by the way... fuckers.... stop laughing at me...haha....
Should Ronnie ever read this.... you'll never understand how much I cared for you or how I would have done anything for you, but the pain we caused each other wasn't fair to us or our children. I will always love you, but I can never be "IN" love with you again. You are a good person with a kind heart and I wish you well in life. Our life as man and wife may have come to an end, but our journey as parents travels on.....
to those immediately around me (you know who you are), i'm sorry for the pain that you are enduring because of my decisions, but you must let me go this journey alone, be there as my friends and family, offer your advice, hold my hand when I stumble, but don't ridicule me as I'm not perfect nor do I expect you to be. Know that I make my decisions based on my desires and my childrens best interests and not for anyone else. I love you all.....
to those of my "online" friends..... thank you for your support... being there for me to talk to is such an amazing help. Thank you for your never ending kindness as well..... my friends are much needed right now.........
to me.... remember to breath.....life goes on.... smile.....laugh........love
