kittenhasclaws's blog: "my life"

silly little girls! HONESTLY how could you ever think that MY MAN would want you! you know who you are... those desperate girls that gotta jump on whatever dick shows just the littlest bit of attention. Look at me than at yourself see the difference I'm what you'll never be a woman who is happy being herself. He tells you that he loves you {bullshit} he tells you that we are getting a divorce {really bullshit} even if he left he would come back cause NO-ONE does it like me. He might talk to you ....he holds me! He might call you... he kisses me! he might get you off...he MAKES LOVE TO ME! If you believe you are anything more than a game your wrong sorry to burst your bubble. so keep blowing up his cellphone and playing the clingy bitch... hes my husband and i don't give up MY THINGS without a fight. that ring is like a brand his ass is mine along with his heart. so really if I'm a skanky hoe or a fat bitch i must be doing something right if it takes him 7 days to recover from me fucking his brains out. Believe what you want slut! the entire time he was talking to you last night i was beside him and i was watching and laughing at you...your nothing more than a fly that's about to be swatted...i am nothing to play with. I thinks it's cute sending him little pictures of you on his camera phone but really doll think he was looking at you while i sucked his dick...and i don't recall him moaning your name...i am ho i am and i will never change. YES I HAVE A GIRLFRIEND he didn't mention that we share her did he huh? so keep giving guys head and fucking them wishing it was him... cause thats all you'll ever get baby little wish. your a waste f air nothing more than a meth head do the world a favor bitch kill yourself...I'll even load it for you. i have nothing to lose keep pushing...what will they do give me life...death sentence...we all gotta go sometime...you think your scary...deranged... the only thing you run is that mouth and half the time it's "what do you like about me ...do you think im pretty...i love you" bitch please yea you really don't need a man huh? I am what nightmares are made of and I know alot about you.

Forget the writing on these walls forget you ever cared at all cause i don't matter anymore i guess she's what you needed but where the fuck does that leave me? all alone and close to death your dagger buried in my chest go ahead and make my day tell the truth for once your ripping me down i can't stop this ride i feel like i'm going to drown i'm praying that i die so you will finally see it was me.... you.... loved I'll be the addict to your love I'll die before i trust ... you again I wish i'd kept up my wall maybe then i would not fall for the line of shit you always seem to feed me you clame that i'm the one... look back on what you've done and what your ....doing your not the man that i once knew i'm so sorry.. i guess i was never good enough for you... i'm so sorry... did i leave blood stains on the wall i guess there was a bullet after all... just let me be... i've had enough... of... all this hurt and despair over a man who never cared... just leave if you must... you'll no longer break my trust... i give you all of me and this is what i get you said you would never hurt me then again you say alot of things i want to hate you but i can't this a senceless romance a scary tidalwave pulling me to sea I'll be the addict to your love I'll die before i trust ... you again I wish i'd kept up my wall maybe then i would not fall for the line of shit you always seem to feed me you clame that i'm the one... look back on what you've done and what your.... doing what is it that you can't love about me am i not pretty enuogh did you just get bored baby, what can i do please don't hurt me anymore your gonna be the suicide of me i'm trapped and i just... can't get free i don't want to let go i don't want to lose you how can i lose what i don't have did i ever have you wedding vows i guess dont mean a thing just a few words and a gold ring can't you see that i'm in pain guess your not the man you were I'll be the addict to your love I'll die before i trust ... you again I wish i'd kept up my wall maybe then i would not fall for the line of shit you always seem to feed me you clame that i'm the one... look back on what you've done and what your.... doing dose my heart mean anything...anymore if it dose than just love me before you push me out the door... i tried and gave my all for you JUST HOLD ME i want you to feel my pain JUST HOLD ME promise to never do this again JUST HOLD ME and tell me another lie JUST HOLD ME i guess this is the end of our game so tell me one last time how i saved your life how i'm your only one that i'm not just for fun your heart is only mine you'll be with me for all of time I'll be the addict to your love I'll die before i trust ... you again I wish i'd kept up my wall maybe then i would not fall for the line of shit you always seem to feed me you clame that i'm the one... look back on what you've done and what your.... doing i guess you are all the same i don't even have to mention their name's you claimed you'd be the last to break this heart that's made of glass we see how far that went look all the time spent trying to light a wet fuse just like our love i guess it's no use you want your freedom back so bad did you ever even love me i see now that you can't see the fact that i would die for you and that i just might have to i lay broken at your feet but you step over me i swear i'll never love again this is how my story ends i guess this is my end i guess my time here is done if you want me than you know what you have to do..... i'll always be waiting cause i'm a fool for you you can't deny why i'm hurt i would never do this to you and you know that is a fact you'll be the suicide of me as my world fades to black i gues it won't happen like that i guess it's all a pipe dream i'm sorry if i hurt you i'm sorry that i lied but i have never used you so this leave's me to ask why did you feel that i deserve this are you really that fucked up i sorry i'm not more more of what your looking for I'll be the addict to your love I'll die before i trust ... you again I wish i'd kept up my wall maybe then i would not fall for the line of shit you always seem to feed me you clame that i'm the one... look back on what you've done and what your doing your gonna be.... JUST HOLD ME

You'll find me naked, You'll find me naked, On your living floor, You left me jaded, And now I'm begging for more So come on and touch me.... Make me sweat, Give me a memory, I won't soon forget, FORGET....On your living floor, You left me jaded, And now I'm begging for more So come on and touch me.... Make me sweat, Give me a memory, I won't soon forget, FORGET.... So come on and touch me baby, Give me what you got, Want it a little harder this time, Let's kick thing's up a notch, A I'll play the victim, If you'll make me scream, I've been a very bad girl, Fulfill my naughty dream's, Cause you know you want it, Honey don't deny, Let's take a closer look into those hungry eye's, Come find me Let's see where thing's may lead, It'll all be fine if you trust in me, Close your eye's I don't need you to see The making of this sinister deed, Where eye's learn to cry and heart's remember to bleed, You'll never met another quite like me, Go ahead and scream, GO AHEAD AND SCREAM, Forget what came before me, I'm not a part of your past, Close your eye's and give in to me, Promise I'll make it last, I'll play the victim, If you'll make me scream, I've been a very bad girl, Fulfill my naughty dreams, Cause you know you want it, Honey don't deny, Let's take a closer look into those hungry eye's, Come find me Little innocent me, Staring up at you, From here on my knee's, Willing to please, Fulfill all your twisted needs, Tell me you can turn that away, You know what I'm gonna say, I'll play the victim, If you'll make me scream, I've been a very bad girl, Fulfill my naughty dreams, Cause you know you want it, Honey don't deny, Let's take a closer look into those hungry eye's, Come find me, come find me, COME, FIND, ME!!

Lost on a inner battel feild, Held captive by my dreams, pain comes and welcomes me cause no one else is near, Fear comes flooding back into my blood shot eyes, Please hear my mornful cries, Please hear my dieing scream's , Inside I am dieing, From the agony of dispair, And my heart is bleeding ... You no longer care, Eye's that once shined with love, Now burn with hate, Revenge is all that's on you mind, And i'm sorry I just can't wait, You say that you are mine till the end... well i guess the end is near.... When you whisper in you sleep... It's not my name that ring's ever so clear, You belong to another...

when am i too be beautiful when will i be yours again your not happy loving me why won't you just be honest am i some sort of back up plan??? for when the rest fall threw? You say you love me than again you say alot how much of this shit is true? I watch your eyes wander and it rips me in to your killing me so softly i give you a inch you take three feet and on my knees i am left to weep begging for your love needing your touch I never once thought love could hurt this much I give my all to a man who wants none have you ever once looked in my eyes watched my tears welling heard my depressed sighs i want to be your only but i know that won't come true wishes are for children and sadness is my essence you'll just turn your cheek look someone else's way one day you'll wake up hearing my life leave one last echo a shot that'll ring through time when your "true" love takes her own life maybe then you'll see i loved you but by then we will be no more so play me one last lullaby on that propaganda guitar watch me drift away now goodbye my one time angel

closing my eyes i listen this never changing melody echo's like a gunshot you were all i ever wanted or so i thought guess i thought wrong lies and fights sleepless nights blood and tears thats what i live for now your little china doll you break me away little peace by little peace i know not love but heavy hand i know not light but your dark grace does not fall here only tears like whispering rain only to be brushed off till the next season of broken heart of shattered vows will i ever open my eyes change this melody theres no more echo theres no more you and me only lies, blood and dust thats all thats left of us