Nianu09's blog: "My Life Story"

so yar my dad gets another job offer in Conroe,Tx. i was sad that i would never see my friends from school again. there is one i managed to find on facebook but he doesn't remember me :P so i went to a new school and finished up 1st grade. the house we lived on was like a really small ranch in another forested area. we had a pasture for horses but never had any. after 1st grade we had to move again because our house kept having problems and the landlord wouldn't help fix them. a few months later my dad took him to court and we ended up winning i think. i know i went to the court when it happened but i cannot recall at all what happened. 

to this point i had had a relatively normal life. but one event changed my life forever. me and my sister used to play games in our oldest brother's room. he had some old fashioned puppets we used to play with and we'd make up dances to songs. it was fun. but one night i guess my brother was feeling.. experimental. he started askin to touch is and for us to touch or do stuff to him. it wasn't ever with me and my sister both there. just one or the other but i think he preferred me because i was older but only 7yrs old. a few times he even tried having sex with me. of course i had no idea it was bad so i actually liked it. is that normal? i feel horrible about it now. if we weren't having sex i was givin him blow jobs. somehow my parents found out so of course we had to stop. i really liked how it felt so i kept trying to pleasure myself. i didn't know how he was doing it tho. i know it sounds silly. eventually i found out how to masturbate and was doin it constantly. my mom would always yell at me if she caught me doin it. even if i was in privacy. so at that point i really started feeling bad about myself. years later i found out my brother is gay. i really hate seeing him. not because he's gay but i mean why the fuck did he have to mess with me? and was it because of me that he's gay? i'm too terrified to ask. i try not to be near him if he's at my dad's when i am.

we then moved to a town called Kingwood, Tx. the snobbies place i'd ever lived and hope to never return. when i turned 9 i had my first menstral cycle. i'd been wearing bras since i was 8 because i had big boobs for some reason. i was always laughed at at school. i didn't have any friends because i was really tall. i had this one chick that always picked on me because she could see my bra strap near the collar of my shirt. i'd just look at her and get back to whatever i was doin. usually homework or drawing. i always wore baggy clothes because i was ashamed of my boobs. i eventually got a few girl friends. we'd always play at recess and stay at each others houses. we parted ways tho when we started middle school. we were all going to different schools and one girl moved away. i haven't heard from them since.

middle school was the pits. i wasn't picked on as much but some girls would take the opportunity. i took up playing the violin for the school's orchestra. i loved it. it was so much fun and i could participate with a bunch of people without having to talk to them. after a few months i met Anna. my best friend until college. we did everything together. we always wanted to sing as a duet for the school's talent shows but we never did. she was crazy. she would meet guys on the internet and let them sneak into her room lol. i didn't even have the internet yet. when i spent the night at her house we'd stay up late lookin at porn haha. nothing amazing really happened during middle school so meh.

i think i'll end this session here. poop. more to come lol

i've been inspired by my friend bigdaddydow to write a blog of my life story. well here it goes.

i was born in november 1985. first girl with two older brothers. a year or so later my baby sister was born last of the litter hehe. we lived in a large victorian style house in Navasota, Tx. we only lived there until i was 3. i remember a few things about that house. it had a big spiral staircase that we used to ride our sleepingbags down. on one occasion i remember bumping my head on the checkered tile floor and i cried. my brother's loved ninja turtles and had just about EVERY action figure and even the turtle blimp lol. i loved that thing. Navasota was a relatively small town back then. our family doctor lived a block away from us. my dad is a nurse so they were good friends. my mom was just a house wife at the time. we also had pet rabbits. i loved those rabbits so much. i used to climb up in their cages (which were mounted about 3 ft away from the ground.. god knows how i always got up there). i'd pretend to eat their food and drink their water hehe. at one point i told all of my cousins to call me rabbit. they still do to this day :P as everyone knows bunnies reproduce like crazy. i would get so excited when there was a new baby. however i didn't know touching them would cause the mother to kill them... so after a day or so i'd run to see the babies only to find little bloody mounds instead. i'd cry every time.

when i was about 3 my dad got a job offer in north carolina so we moved. yay. we had to leave the rabbits behind :( we moved to Ashboro, NC to a big yellow house. we made friends pretty easily with neighboorhood kids. also some enemies. the boys that lived across the street were absolute nightmares. i don't remember their names but we called them the Newsom boys. i can only remember one instance where one of them took me into the woods (it was a heavily forested area absolutely beautiful). he showed me some metal pipe. he said it was an old rusted flute. not quite sure if it was or not but anyway.. we could see my brother riding his bike in the street a good ways away. he told me to do a hand gesture i wasn't familiar with at the time. it was the middle finger gesture i'm sure everyone knows lol. so he told me to do it in the direction of my brother or else he was going to beat me with the pipe. not knowing really what it meant i gave my brother the middle finger. the newsom boy dropped the pipe and ran at my brother telling him what i'd done. so i ended up gettin beat up anyways. at least it wasn't with the pipe :)

i eventually started school. made a bunch of friends on the bus and in class. we had this crazy bus driver named Tony. he would always go super fast on the speed bumps on purpose. i thought it was really fun. this is about the time my gaming frenzy started. the super nintendo was released and my grandmother got it for us. i absolutely loved zelda. i rented it so much from blockbuster that my mom bought it for my 6th birthday. i still have the game and it's box and instruction manual. i kept everything with my zelda games :D we also had two Amiga computers. one was the 1000 series and the other was 3000. the only really good games we had on it was the rocketeer, faerie tale adventure, and the hailey project. so yar in the middle of 1st grade around christmas break we moved again. back to texas yeehaw!

well i've typed a lot. i don't want to bore anyone yet so i'll stop there and continue the second part soon. woohoo.