sheilahagerty's blog: "my life in general"

I was getting ready to shut everything down and go to lay down and get some rest,when out of nowhere my front door handle and door sound like someone was trying to get in. The only person i was expecting never showed up to bring her dog over so i could watch him.Breath in, hold and breath out, it is not like i am not safe i have tons of homes around me it is just that SOMEONE tried walking through my front door. I keep my door locked at all times I watch trutv and it five in the morning what the hell. maybe it was some drunk neighbor that forgot where they lived. it is strange my husband has complained that people watch him through our windows and we our suppose to keep the drapes and blinds closed as tightly as possible. now i have an uneasy feeling becuz if what he says is true, than someone could be watching me right now, and that creeps me out. I gotta clear my head it was just the wind. or something. yes, my overactive imagination is on overdrive i need to just find a cigarette and try not to think about it and hide underneath my covers. lol i use to do that when i was kid. thanks for reading my paranoid fear.

before i go i just want to say how proud am to be mom, one thing never ever dreamed would ever happen, including the fact i am married, never dreamed it would make it as has. number one reason i can be bullheaded. but anyway even when i am dealing with a three that says she can't do this and but can climb to get to something i said no too like her suckers.:) or one minute says she has lots fun with me n the next tell me i am not her best friend.:) gotta get used to that one cuz i remember saying i hated my mom sometime still do but that is cuz two people who are identical in everyway down to mannerisms can't and should not spend more than a hr together. lol ttyl

today was an okay day until about bedtime, my precious goes insane,running,jumping talking like someone put a roll of quarters in her. the weather is kinda snowy and cold so she can't go outside so i relize it is just pent up energy but it was just plain insane. yesterday was the day from hell, i like a good wife and mother trying to get the house clean checking out my emails my daughter decides she wants egg and instead of asking me, my princess, cracks the eggs herself, and trys to turn on the burner but instead turns on the oven. oh, yes, i just wrote oven, we live in mobile home so limited cupboard space so i keep few items in the oven. i had noticed a rare smell in the air, my daughter looks at me and says i am cooking eggs. i grabbed what i thought was making the nasty smell, to relize that smoke was coming out of my oven. i opened my oven and saw a small fire, and thought shit, shit, shit, grabbed a pan and franicly started throwing water on the mess, one of my fave glass casrole dishes broke but i got the fire out and all the stuff that was ruined out of my oven. after i got my mobile home aired out, my little mikala looks at me and says mom you are perfect. perfect, okay if she really thinks so i will take it cuz i know there is a day coming where i am not going to be so perfect in her eyes so yes, even though i am not cuz if i were that would have never happened. I just can't believe how she is boldly testing her limits. I know it will not get any easier and that sucks i rememeber what i was like and if she takes after me i have one hell of ride to go one with her. And that scares me. later.