Flawless's blog: "Iam?"

Well I haven't written in a blog in a while,
Alot has happened since then some things good somethings not so great.
All in all last year is most likely  a year I will never forget!
Some of you are probably thinking what is she talking about...Well I met a man who i thought i was going to spend the rest of my life with, but as the year went on things changed for me in so many ways. I lost my job at Target in Febuary and i am still looking now. Something will turn up I am sure of it, ill just have to keep praying and looking a little longer than expected.
I fell in love with someone who I thought loved me as I loved him, but as the year went by I learned that he wasn't the man I thought we was. He was sleeping around on me. He admitted to me that he cheated. Which ripped my heart into pieces and I never in a million years through that would happen to me.
While he was cheating he missed the most important thing to ever happen to a couple, I learned I was pregnant, but before I could share the news I went through a miscarriage.
That was the toughest part dealing with that all alone. I considered ending my life several times, there was so much hurt, and pain. I didn't think I would make it some days. But I am a strong woman and I managed to come through.
Ill never forget that feeling, its something stays with you forever. Some days I wake up wondering will this pain ever go away? Only time and distance can heal this heart, God will heal me, he will bring a new love to my life when the time is right.
But all that aside I will make this year a awesome year!
So for now Ill just keep my heart closed till someone decides to break that wall down!