Ok the hospice came today and said that everything is shutting down.. She may live until next week.. So it is really hard.. I don't know what to do or say at all.. It is hard that my life is shittie as of now.. I don't want her to die to be honest with you all she is the only thing I have lift of me.. you all know that deep in my heart.. But if she has to go than I am going to have to accept it like it or not.. I can't blame myself it is was not my damn fault.. I may give up and give up who or what i believe.. Right now I am going to stay strong no matter what happens.. So that is that.. that is life and it is her destiny.. If this happens I will be happy that she is in a better place and I have to move on with my life.. Give you all updates on my grandma really soon..
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