OH SHE REALLY LOVED ME!! THEN TELLS YOU ALL IM HORRID!! LOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOL I FUCKING WELL AM NOW!!
But then I thought I'd loose my nerve I tride to delet our conversation but couldnt figure out how and kevin said he wouldnt read my IM's but he said he couldnt help himself and he cryd all night and thismorning so I thought maybe I should just stay but then I felt horrible because I keep wondering if I do and I never meet u will I always want to and the answere is yes I will I'll wonder forever. I'll wonder if I missed out on someone that i'd be happy w/ on someone that i'll feel i dont have to change for and it is crazzy for me to say that because we have never met.. But then I think what if its all in my head what if I only feel so much for u because of my problems w/ him but then that gos away. and i no ur a big flirt i new that when i met u and u also said u like to say what u think will make ppl happy so what if thats what ur doing right. Then I think why would he say he feels drawn to me if he's not I dont think u would. So long story short I'm a bit conflicted and I want to heare how u feel and what u think and if u think im just crazzy lol when u said i make u smile and i make u happy i thought how could we both be feeling this if its not real because u do the same for me I cant wait to here from u even if its somethen i dont wanna hear i so need to
Also i wrote u an e-mail 2 nights ago saying how i feel but i deleted it cause i was upset and when im upset i dont remember all i say. I just figure this needs to be said and if its rong of me to feel this way then it is but i dont want to wonder all my life i wanna no and thats just how i feel so please get back to me soon i love u even though i no i shouldnt but its out their so do w/ it what u will talk to u soon i hope
