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Yeah, I never blog, but I am home sick from work and all the real blogs are going to be on my website... but there's a lot I want to vent about first... I hate complaining about my health, but well... I need to complain about my health... :P I have been without my meds since January because the insurance company has taken to long to approve it. So in the meantime I have been subbing steroids for the missing med, in the process gaining weight... I am self conscious of my appearance to begin with but now I'm all sorts of chubtacular... blah... I haven't been this ill since I was a kid, but my immune system is being pulled through the ringer. I know no one has to understand or care, and I try to be the happy one, the strong one all the time, but sometimes, it's hard and people don't realize I need some down time too. I do have some really great friends, my amazing family and a wonderful girlfriend who understand. I keep randomly falling asleep, going through mood swings, random muscle spasms, then there was the back injury. But thankfully that's over. My med was approved TODAY and should be at my door Thursday. Tomorrow I go to Hershey for routine treatment. Hopefully I'll be seeing some forms of normalcy soon. On another note I got a raise and a bonus at work. I am thrilled to be making good money when for how many years no one would accept me because of my health. I can afford nice things for myself and also to spread some love around those special to me who deserve it more than they know. Like my family for instance, and Jenn and Barb, who always helped me when I needed. And Debbie and Chrissy who refused to let lack of a cash flow hinder having a good time with friends. Sometimes I don't quite know how to say Thank You, so I just do little things like buy drinks or shots or little gifts... how can you pay back what such amazing people have done for you for years? I mean in the last two years I made some new friends, rekindled some old friendships, and fell in love. The new friends turned out to be amazing, inspirational, encouraging people... I really look up to two of them, still do. They've both been role models to me in more ways than they know. I've admired them and all they do for themselves and others. They never bitch, they work hard, and are so loved and beautiful... When they get involved in drama, they always follow their hearts back to what's right. They have fun, real fun, and never let anyone or anything make excuses for them. To be frankly honest... I wish I was as beautiful in all ways as they are. Body, mind, spirit... But I am still young I guess... I miss them terribly. I never let heresay bother me in trials, why do I let it bother me now? Ah well. Everyone has things happen and things get put through the ringer; things like words, my health, friendships, things get twisted and people get hurt, but what can ya do? Heresay always becomes manifested in some way, 9 times out of 10 untrue, but I don't let words bother me anymore. I'm still the 'happy one'... or at least I am tryin to be. On a-nother-NOTHER note... I got a new Louis Vuitton purse, a Burberry Purse and a Pink Blackberry Phone. And it feels damn good knowing I worked for them all, myself. :) I have a few grand in the bank, and a tax return coming. Nice. Ooh ooh a-nother-nother-NOTHER note... I got my nose pierced! Yes the good little girl rebelled :P Hahaha. Jenn took me for my birthday. I like it. Pics to come? Time to get designing on my website blog. It's gonna be about really mundane subjects really, nothing too personal, just opinionated crap :P PS I have been constipated for days.. help? I need to crap.. :( xoxoxo, Melanie
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