My Forbidden Love
As I lay upon my softened bed with gentle thoughts of you racing through my head
I listen to the rumble of thunder roll across the sky while I see you in my mind's eye.
The soft dripping of the rain is lost to me as I try in vain.
To stop these feelings of love you tell me are so wrong even though I have not had them for very long.
You say you can not love me for I belong to another and that I should not love some other.
Longing to be your love and your wife knowing this will only bring you strife.
I sit here amongst my turmoiled filled thoughts with visions of what my love for you has wrought upon your heart.
In your heart you say I have filled you with pain for what I have come to feel you can never feel the same.
How many nights alone I have lain awake with restless turning in my bed while secret sinful thoughts of you fill my head.
Longing for the warmth of your gentle touch and strong embrace.Thinking of how I wish to feel your heated kiss makes my heart race.
Never knowing real love before now, this painful longing I must endure somehow.
So my secret love shall be forever hidden in the garden of my heart.Where it was destined to grow from the start.
In my heart and mind my secret love will bloom for all of time.
To the very depth of my soul shall my secret love forever flow forever making my heart glow.
This loneliness I must endure for my love you are so distant like a hidden shore.
Never to touch your beautiful face and feel your gentle loving grace.
If but only for a moment I could hold you close to feel the beat of your heart beneath my skin.I would survive through any trial if only I could be yours for just awhile.
You will always be my secret longing and secret need.You will be the secret rose blossoming inside of me.
So tell me I am wrong and scold me as you will but my love will always belong to you still.
So when you lay your head upon your pillow know that as you do I am thinking of you.While in my secret heart I am praying that just maybe you are thinking of me too.
8/1/07
