butterfly girl's blog: "my fkd up life"

Ever so often we are given the gift of being able to feel love. I got to experience that. Although it is over, I am gratful I got to feel that. Every day is a new day, we make of it what we choose. I choose to make the days ahead of me brighter days. He showed me that. I am gratful that he showed me so many things in life. Am I hurt? yes. Do I hate him? never. I will always love him on some level, but I know life must go on, and I will be rolling right along with it. So thanks to him for showing me how wonderful life can be, and how i can be given a WONDERFUL gift even for a very short time.

Ok, I know that most of you out there at one time or another have been in love. I have never been in love till now. The man I love, I do not think feels the same for me. I think he cares yes, but love, no. I don't know if I should wait, or just move on. I love him so much and I don't want to lose him. I think I messed it up when I left him a voice mail saying you can take 5 minutes out of your day to call some one u care for. Yeah he told me this morning that we needed to tlk. I think that is bad. Ok, well any help would really be appreciated.

Well, today was extreamly intresting. I go to move and what do i find, but 2 black holes where my living room and bedroom floors should be. WHAT THE HELL??? I am now trying to figure out why the man decided to rip my floors out the week I move in. Anyway I am stuck here at my moms without yahoo and some of my stuff still at the other house and my ex moved in today, I mean hell man give me a chance to get out before you come running me off. Well, I am still laughing my ass off, cause I am a vindictive bitch, and well he will get his in the end. HAHAHAHAHA

Well to all of my friends, my life doesn't seem so fkd up anymore. The stars have alighned and I seem to be moving in the direction of happiness. I have met a wonderful man that I have been with 3 months, I have the BEST job in the world, and whoever said that you couldn't have your cake and eat it to, was lying through their teeth. I actually get paid to do what I do best, and that is run my mouth. I am moving this weekend into a cute little house. All in all the world seems to be a much happier place to be. I know a lot of times we feel like just giving up and not going on, but take it from me, there is happiness out there. I have waited what seems my whole life to be this happy. Never get so down that u want to give up, I promise, from experience the sun will shine and your world will be a much happier place to live.

Ok, this is a bitch blog. A way to get things off of my chest. Seven months ago my husband of seven years walked in and asked for a divorce. I was like WHAT THE FK??? Then I find out a few days later that he had been cheating on me. Well I so totally got over it and let a girl move in with me who totally fk me over financially and all that good stuff. I have to be moved out by the end of the month and was sweatin finding a place to live. Tomorrow I have a huge job interview and I find out tonight that my grandmother passed away. What else, I mean I know that my life could be A WHOLE LOT worse, but damn how much can a person take. Anyway I guess I'll quit the bitch fest now and do somthing more constructive.