well today im sitting here all fucked up because of a slip i had in my recovery....there are nothing but good things that came from today...
i realized that the disease of addiction will be with me for the rest of my life,however it is my choice to do what is nassacary to do what it takes to seek my recovery...
i was coming up an a year clean and uuuhhh yeah i slipped ...i feel it was a message from my higher power whom i care to call god.... he put my ass in check by sending back out cause i thought i no longer needed to take my medication. (which consists of meetings and alot of looking into self) for those that actually call themselves my friends on here have helped alot by just being there for me today.. both in and outside of the fellowship ...
i also learned that regaurdless of what i think of myself i am a decent person.. regaurdless of what i have done in my past i cant hold my self hostage about all that.. and believe me i have done and witnessed some foul shit.....
so to sum up todays inventory of self i am powerless and my life has become unmanagable and i need help..
