I don't normally blog on Myspace. Too many people I know and I don't know I am not one to share true feelings. Since everyone here seems so nice and supportive I figure this is a great place to come.
Last week my Husband (ryan) didn't feel well, I had bought some spare robs to BBQ but insted of saying I don't want those put them back in the freezer he just feel asleep early it was great I didn't have to cook but that was $12.00 of food that was wasted. so they are still in my fridge starting to get funky and I don't have the heart to throw them away. I will never cook them but now garbage dosen't come for another week so I don't want them to totally funk befor next friday.
Then on monday I pulled pork chops out of the freezer and put them in microwave to defrost then we went out to eat, i forgot them till tuesday then remembered they were there. I called ryan he pulled them out and put them in the fridge why?? So they went bad too.
Then 2 weeks ago it was my baby shower my best friend never showed up. I was devistated. She text message me 2x's to which I never replied then she emailed me and I emailed her my explantation of what a shitty friend she was she had an excuse like I am a single mom I don't have a husband to pick up the slack. Well no one said anything about you being a single mom. Needless to say I never responded back. I am going to have a baby in less than 3 weeks my main focus should be on her and Ryan.
My heart is heavy and I feel bad I don't know what to do. I feel like I have alot of great fantastic things in my life that I should focus on but the person (crazy) I am let's me focus on the thing that upsets me most.
I am drinking a soda pop which I will regret when it's time for bed.
