Chrissy in CT's blog: "On the edge....."

As i wake up today and look in the mirror at the extra pair of luggage i seem to be carrying under my eyes from lack of good sleep I wonder what cruel little surprise my 40+ body has in store for me next. It seemed that on my 40th birthday the process started of my face sliding off the bone of my skull giving me the slight resemblance of the dog in Dukes of Hazzard to the decided drop in a few other strategic places that were once perky and ready to face the world. The gray hairs come in faster than Clairol can keep up with and naps in the afternoon that I used to make fun of my mother for taking are something i would pay good money to be able to do in peace. What does it all MEAN??? Means I am not immortal like in Greek Mythology afterall. Somebody lied...lol! How quickly you get here and how fast it all flies by. Are you ready for it? I used to get hit on by older men who worried that I would get pregnant and they would end up paying child support. Now I get hit on by 28 year olds who know that aint gonna happen and somehow think I know some miraculous sexual trick that everyone else doesnt. (Psst I do but I aint tellin!) And its not just who hits on me its who disses me too!!! The gents my age are more interested in going to bed to SLEEP than anything else (and honestly if i hear one more ex-wife took me for everything story I'll gack...get over it already)...the younger ones want a relationship and kids. No can do here, least the kid part - physically impossible. Someone changed the rules and the playing field without telling me!!!lol I had a conversation with a young friend last night about adaptation and change. How in life we are forever reinventing ourselves and evolving into the person we in part choose to be... and our meant to be. Honestly...as I face the down slide to 50 am happier with me than ever. When my boobs hit my ankles I'll wrap them around them to keep my feet warm and when my face wrinkles and drops I'll be proud of every furrow. I've survived with a sense of humor, pride and intellect. I've faced my obstacles and sorrows...with head up. Ever forward. I've loved life and my friends and family with every fiber of my being. My hair may turn gray but my heart is still young. So fuck it ....bring on the next decade with speed and show me what ya got mother nature cuz I'm ready and I refuse to be an old fart. I'm gonna be the most "WOW" 50 something woman anyone knows. But just in case anyone know a good plastic surgeon???lol (j/k)