Once Again.......I Was Right About RJ Cheating, I guess my instincts were right....even though i hoped i was wrong..but...
once again...it turns out...that my cousin and good friend (kayla)...tho i did not ask them too..and for once i behaved (miracle i know)and i'm not saying they were right to do this but...they figured payback was a bitch...for what RJ did to me again...and they knew i should probably know the truth and I did want the truth but would have rather heard it from him. I think in any relationship..if one wants out..they should be honest...it might hurt..but it is so much easier to heal if you hear the truth.... Anywayz... they gathered up some things they could find easily, since his new gf is into drama as RJ is apparently....and she spammed it all over the net that they have been together since Sept (around the 17th) ...yet he was engaged to me...did not leave me till middle of October...(amazing huh?)...so at least now i know the truth but, one thing i am asking is for anyone who really cares for me as even a family member or friend (you know who you are )...just let it be. I have grown enough,..considering this is not the first time he cheated on me..just this time i think really sunk in that once a cheat always a cheat....Just let them be happy....let them do w/e the fuck they want...I'm glad he did this now rather than after we married and had the family we planned. He can lie to her all he wants.. he knows...his parents knew....what we had...and how he is and they are probably happy to get rid of him who knows...it's not my place to know or care anymore. Will I have love for him? ...probably..but it will never be the same knowing what he did to me again. Will i forgive him or his best friend (and probably lover at one time Jade and Heather for their past actions and Jades recent one) nope never. But i will let the Lord if there is one handle that when necessary. Will i pray and help if needed to protect his own kid from him...absolutely ....i will help jamie in anyway she needs now because i probably have things that will help her if she wants. Do I want that to happen...not really but i don't think he should have unsupervised visitations. Anyway..enough of that. I have gotten vids and copies of blogs this new girl wrote accusing me and saying things about me yet she does not even know me and i did nothing to her but ask her to stop calling him back in October when she lied and told me she only spoke to him a few times on phone......thats all good...let her learn for herself...I beleive in Karma.
So...eh My surprise for him at Christmas went bad..but u know..it's a new year...right? While he was saying I love you to infinitey to her..he was saying it to me also...only i was engaged to him...she will be his new venture..and maybe that's a good thing.
Other than that....the good news is it has pushed me again to pick up the pcs, and go on...and I will. I was offered the job i wanted...and they are giving me time to think it over...but i think now is the time i need to make my move.
Sooooo....to my family, I love you (well most of you lol)...To my friends that have always been there for me...especially Ben, Craig, Jose...and Rick..Kayla, Madeleine...i love you all so much u have no idea.
So..let me wipe my tears away...brush myself off...smile...and start the new year off right!!!
(and Tia/Kayla..enuff ok?..i know you meant well but enough xoxo thanks)
xoxo Eleni
