perfectly imperfect's blog: "My Disclaimer"

2008 my review So this is the review of my life in the last year..... It started ok..I wasnt liking my job by this point. I seemed to have co workers conspiring againist me . But I made it thru it in Jan. I was starting to get sick. I was in and out of the hospital at this point and they didnt know what was wrong but I will say that I had some great friends that took care of me. In Feb. I was still sick but feeling better...I was doing well in poker it was my only safe place it seemed. I had met this guy who has turned out to be a friend after everything that had happened. He even bought me a cake on my birthday which means the world to me becuz no one else has ever done that. Which brings me up to my birthday weekend..It was a blast thanks to Jenn my sister her friend Wendy Becca Michael Chris and everyone else who helped celebrate it.I never thought my sister would ever come down ..Thanks Michelle for being one of the best times in my life. March I was getting sick not really being able to work do to an illness they did know what was going on...By this point I really hated going to work. April I lost my job thanks to being sick and the people who didnt think I was doing my job...I left Nashville with the intentions of coming back once I got back on my feet.I was only going home for alittle bit even though I wasnt suppose to fly. May I was really really sick..They finally figured it out it had to do with my tube.I was schudule for surgery in June. So I chilled out with my nieces and learned more about them..Which Im glad I got to do. June I had surgery on June 12...One of the best days of the year. I met a nice guy online and we are still friends today...I think he is awesome.I went back to Nashville for a visit and to help say good bye to Jenn as she was leaving Coyote Ugly. Im glad I got to be part of that and surprise her when I came home. July I went to MN to see the resort my sis was going to buy. It was a beuatiful week out there.I got lots of time wth my nieces.. August..Decided I needed a new direction in life. I took Kari up on her offer and was going to move to CO at the beginning of Sept. I had a hard time comming with terms of actually not going back to Nashville. Sept..Took Amtrack out to CO moved in with Kari and relized how beautiful that part of CO was. Started to watch my wonderful niece and to relax not be so stressed. Oct. I really havent made any friends out here yet but Im remembering all the good people that I have misplaced in life and trying to find them with no luck. I go out on Halloween with a friend I have out there and have a blast relizing I need to get out more like in TN becuz Im becoming non exstitent to me. But still having friends from TN stand by my side. Nov. I have gone out alittle bit more. Made a couple more friends. Read the Twilight saga in a week. Watched it snow and played in it with my niece. Had a quit Thanksgiving with my sis. Dec. Watched it snow more..Played in the snow more...Relize how much I miss my friends. Wishing I had someone to spend the holidays with. I got on a plane to go to Iowa on Dec 18. The first Friday here I had the most excitement I had in awhile..My sister and I got stuck in a snow bank..I learned we should always have a shovel ..Right Michelle???? Had a good Christmas with my family.. Now Im looking over 2008 and relizing that I missed out on alot and made some bad luck for myself. But I have some friends that I would say remain true and I wouldnt change for the world. I now have goals for 2009 and say watch out world and hold on my friends... Stay tuned to see what happens... Have a Happy New Years eveyone

My Disclaimer This is about me and what I want. This might make some of you mad: First off...I hope you read this before you decide you want to talk to me on yahoo. I give out my yahoo ID to be friends. Im really not looking for a relationship just friends with the potential of being more. But IM not there to be your Porn star they have sites for that. If I decide to do something it is for me and NOT you so DO NOT ask me to show more than I do. Im there to chat and make friends. So if we are talking on there DO NOT ASSUME that we are dating becuz WE are not. IF and WHEN I decide to take it to the next level you will know. About me: I was married for ten and half years. I have no children but I love them to death. My ex was my highschool sweetheart that was very very bad to me. Becuz of him Im very jaded. I have been divorced now for three years and Im just now starting to see what is out there for me. I have lots of faults but I have alot of pluses to. Im a bigger girl and Im ok with that. But if you are reading this you probably already have seen my pictures. Dont get me wrong Im losing weight every day but I love me. I will not settle for someone who doesnt care for me as a whole person. I have a huge heart to share and give one day..But I want someone to learn about me before I do that. I have my days just like you. I can be emotional but I have learned that this world doesnt really want that anymore and I refuse not to feel all those feeling that make us us. So if you are still intrested keep reading on: This is what Im looking for : I want someone who loves thier job. It doesnt have to be the perfect job in the world or pay alot but you have to love what you do or in the process of bettering yourself. Money to me is just something that we have to have to make the world work. I want someone who loves music, arts, and theatre. I love to go to entertainment stuff and want someone to enjoy that with. I want someone who is comfortable with themselves. They can let me go out with the girls and know that Im coming home to them no matter where we go or what we do. I want someone who will try and dance with me. Wether it is learning the tango two step or us just out being silly. If you dont want to try you will come along and watch me have fun. I want someone who loves the outdoors and will be patient enough to teach me things. I love to hike but want to be a better rock climber, I love to ride horse but really hate fishing. That is what you and your buddies can do. I want someone who is ok if I dont watch sports with you. I have never really watched them but If you are willing to teach me what is going on then Im willing to learn. I love hockey. I want someone who isnt a intervert.Im a socail butterfly.I love to throw dinner parties and go to them. I want someone who will be by my side. You dont have to help but will be there to help entertain. Someone who will be invovled in the community with me. I want to give back what places have given to me. I want someone how loves to play texas hold em or who will learn to play with me. This is one of my favorite past times. I want someone who will stay in with me and watch movies and cuddle. Even though above it looks like I love to be on the go sometimes I want to just relax. I want someone who will let me sexual experiment. When I was married that wasnt aloud. Now Im learning alot about myself and I want someone to enjoy me. I dont expect you to have all these qualities but I do expect you to have some of them. Im a social person so that is one important thing to me. I know I have flaws and I know you will to but to be a couple is to learn about them and not to change the other person. Thanks for reading..I hope we can be friends. Have a good day.