With a crack of the whip I drop down to my knees.
Like a demon tearing down my soul , The tip lashes across my back
with such force & hatred wich only us condemned know.
Tears fill my eyes daring not to fall to the raging inferno beneath me.
My Judgement & Condemnedment both hand in hand before me.
A life lived to my wants & needs & not that of my heavenly father's advice
has brought me to where I deserve to be.
Only cursing myself for not doing as I should've, Accepting every soul crushing lash that continuously falls upon my body. With dead memories of the happy times of my life for wich I had not appreciated nor had I shown graditude for. Tormenting me endlessly. Drawing me to scream out from the deepest depths of my soul for the the next lash to be even more painful enough to drown em out .
But with every lash comes a fresher more heart wrenching memory and more torment.
I look above to to repent for all i did & didn't do , But now its to late.
The demons rip away my flesh as they chain me down.
Breaking down my soul & shattering my every being , They start to prep me
for my eternity of shame, torment &strife.
I can't help but think as this deathly cloud gathers around me , Why?
Why didn't I change when I had the chance?
