I am back online and glad to be here. I left awhile do to personal reasons. I was not very happy with the way things were going and the drama. However, I have come to realize they were minor compared to what is happened in my life. So hello and I hope the following explains why I am back although it was not written for that purpose, but it is some insight.
So Far So Good
This morning I fell back to sleep as the love of my life was preparing for work. It has happened often as of alate. Oh, I wish I were awake and alert every waking minute she is, but I am not. I have not worked in nearly a year and you were to see me, you say, "Kick the lazy bum in the rear and get him out there doing something worthwhile, he is just so darn lazy. The truth is I would love to be out there and making a great living. It is difficult with the current situation for a man who can not keep his shoes dry to get a great job. Enough of the that now and back to the beginning. As I said I had fell back to sleep and was awaken by phone call.
Cheerfully, my doctor said he was looking for Charles Daugherty and I replied this he. He had sent me for an ultrasound on my kidneys and bladder and said they looked to be okay everything considered, but then there came that but. They have found an aneryzism on the aorta, we are going to have to monitor it closely. However we need to get you to the kidney doctor since my kidney functions are not what they should be and to do a catherization at this time is dangerous to them. It seems like there is always something new.
I am not in very good shape physically, I am terribly over wieght, diabetic, high blood pressure, have had open heart surgery double by-pass in which I got a staph infection MRSA that lead to the removal of my sternum, It has gotten difficult to walk the last couple of years with leg pain and difficulty breathing. Since 1994 I have over come luekemia, heart attacks, tia's pneumonia and various mishaps. I survived a wreck in which I was in a small car that had a head-on collision with semi loaded with grain. Was not suppose to live and look at me be able to complain. They did not give me much hope with the luekemia either, but through his grace and power and a lot determination I am still here and yet, if I have my way will be here for years to come. You see I am not ready for the here-after evern with all it's splendor. I like the green grass and cool waters and blue skies and perfer to look at them from here as long as possible.
I feel horrible about not providing the living I want for those I love or being able to shower little gifts on people. I wish I were able to help those without homes and needing medical attention with their financial woes. I have the deepest respect for those with their struggles who go each day, and try to make each one better for their families. I have always volunteered to help others through my life and my sincerest thanks and respect go out to all those helping others in any way they can.
If I could I like to shake all their hands, but I can in this way say thank you. We should not look for rewards for the good that we do, but however we all are human and would like to here thanks once and awhile.
I guess I am bird walking at least that is what they use to call rambling and searching for material while trying too teach a class especially when not as well prepaired as one should be. Yet, I do not believe anyone really pays attention to too many of these blogs and it is good place to get things off your chest and mind and that is sorta what I am doing. It is not going to make all my ailments dissappear or calm all my concerns, but it is going to make me feel a bit better for awhile.
I want all my friends to know I love you all and that is even the friends I have yet to meet and as far as I know I have no enemies and if I do I am sorry we have never really met. I am looking forward to jotting more thoughts in years to come and to live each minute. I offer an open heart of friendship to all those who I will meet and passage of those who care not. May everyone have a better day today then any day they have ever had and may they continue to improve.
