Kacey-
I wish there was something that i could say or do to make you hate me a little less. i dont know what else to do, so i am writing you a letter to try and close the wounds that i have from you not wanting to be my friend, my best friend, anymore. For the last 6-8 years that i have known you, you have always been there to either listen to my problems or to be someone that would belp brighten my day. Sure there has been a lot of tme where we didnt talk, but thats because our lives have been busy and took a different path. But in the last 5-6 months something happened where we were able to resume our friendship, like it had never gone away. I enjoyed everything we ever did; whether it was the drive-ins, dinner and a movie with the girls, r even just coming up to your house just to be with you. All of the time i spent with you was the greatest time of my life. until last saturday. I have never heard ou get that mad and yell that loud at me. You had your valid reasons to be upset and mad, but i also had mine. I never thought that would be the last time i would ever hear your voice again. that day is by far one of the worst days of my life. That day, i lost my best friend. There is no amount of words or things i could say to describe the feeling i get everyday when you wont talk to me and youre not around. It honestly feels like a kick in the gut and my heart getting ripped out of my chest at the same time. Its not a pain i wish on anyone. If there were any set of words that i could say to make things right and change the way you feel, trust me i would say them in a heartbeat. All i want is my friend back in my life so that my heart doesnt feel quite as empty as it does now. Your friendship means the world to me and not having it kills me, cause i know i messed it up. I dont want to say goodbye to you, but you leave me no choice. i wont delete anything from my phone, mypsace, or fubar; but i wont be contacting you anymore. i will leave the ball in your court for you to contact me. It hurts me to write this, but i have no other way to get over you and your friendship. If you take one thing from this letter, please know that i didnt want to do this and also, that i never meant to hurt you. i hope you find whatever it is that youre looking for. I will always be there for you, just call me. youre were the best thing going in my life. Im sorry that i hurt you, because in the end all i did was hurt myself. I will miss your beautiful smile that brightened my day and i will always love you my friend.
Love,
Joe
