Dark Hearted JL's blog: "My Beginnings"

Love Something that's alwayz scared and yet intrigued me Something that can easily be misconstrue by others Something so complex yet so simple Love Something I've yearned for Yearned for on many levels and in many ways Let me explain I yearn for the love of others as friends To be accepted as the real me To be cared about at all times To be heard even at the darkest hours I yearn for the love of a lover Not only for sex like some look for But someone I can hold Someone I can entrust my soul in Someone I can share my needs and desires with Someone I can discover my true potential with I yearn for the love of a family A family that accepts me for my imperfections A family that has my back no matter what A family that knows the true me A family that doesn't dwell on my past mistakes But help me through the future I yearn for love at all degrees Love Something that's alwayz captivated Something that can easily be misapprehended Something that I've alwayz longed for And will continue to til I'm fulfilled.

I never have nightmares My daily visions and dreamz Those are your nightmares So vivid and scary But no one can understand Look into my eyes Tell me if you see my anguish My grief I live with these visions everyday and every night I don’t scream Instead I decide to live with these visions Bottling them up and hoping they don’t come true.

To write about love I use to a long time ago It seemed so easy then To express myself for another Of whom I thought I searched for Now I’ve happen upon someone One I love and cherish One I'm willing to give my all Willing to devote my life to Willing to give my life for I’ve never experience feelings so strong for another She came about lighten my harden heart Broken through barriers built-up against all But there in lays problems First is I don’t believe she knows how strongly I feel But even if she knew If she found out Or even felt the same There still lays a problem It couldn’t be For her heart belongs to another One whom she feels equally strong for One whom I believe could bring her the best It couldn’t be For others would shun it Families would be sharooshed No one could understand it My love for her is strong and complex I now know her love for me she just as strong I would do nothing to hurt her So maybe it could be If our love is as strong as possible This could be our secret Our secret love

Aiight for anyone that has read my profile, I mention that when I have time I'll start to post some of my poems. So guess what........ So as you start to see blogs by me you now what they're most likely going to be about and feel free to comment on them. I'll start off with the two poems that give an explanation. Understanding: To understand my poems You need to understand me To understand me You need to know me To know me You have to read my poems All these can help you To understand my past and my future These are my emotions My life and Finding Self: As I look towards the desolate sky I can’t but think and wonder What begets my inspiration Is it my inner darkness trying to free itself Is it my depression making its voice After six years, I still haven’t discovered the answer I write to express my sorrow To show all the real me I write to share my visions To let others experience my life My words might not flow like a bravura waterfall They may not rhyme to a sweet melody But they confer the voice and spirit of my soul