Ok so a few of you know what i have been going threw latley,but most of you dont.and i just need to kinda vent and put it out there so here it goes.
Well after my second child was about 1 i developed a anxiety/panic disorder.Which started with a trip to my local ER because i thought i was having a heart attack.they sayed it had something to do with a inner ear infection or something like that and sent me on my way.well I kept getting them.So i decided to go see a therapist after i could no longer go to any local stores because of the panic attacks i thought i was gonna die....I had the rapid heart rate,sweating,shaking and tunnel vision and all i could think about is how everyone was staring at me because they knew what was happening to me and i had to leave the store before i fell over dead.well the therapist put me on some meds...and they helped after a few months and life was awesome I had finally found my miracle drug and was back on track YAY.well i got pregnant with my son and i stopped taking the meds because i didnt want them to affect him and threw my whole pregnancy they didnt come back i was so relived!but over the last few months they have come creaping back up on me.which is very hard to deal with,i mean i know there is help and i know i can get better but i hate waiting for the meds to start working again,and living with these attacks.I just feel like such a bad person and mother.All i really want to do is climb into bed untill they go away but i know that is not possible and really it isnt what i want i love spending time with my family and friends!!I just wanna do it without feeling like i am crazy or dying!so for any of you who read all this thanks!!and If you have a simalar problem or anything like it and wanna chat about it i am always willing!Because i think i have read everything there is to read on anxiety panic attacks lol
thanks again for you time
yours nutty :P,
Candi
