Wesley's blog: ""

I hear people talk about what they want in a reletionship, it's almost like a never ending story, there are people that look for 100% of what they are looking for and there are the ones that settle for 50% and there are the Hopeless Romantics (such as myself) that try their best to appreciate the 10% to 30% which means that they must look over the wrong that person does and keep on trying to the point that they end up fading away from that 10% to 30% they thought they could deal with, I've never made it to 40% because I don't look at the outside, it's what's on the inside that counts to me. Before I got to where I am now, I tride to piece together that 100% and as long as I was willing to run across town to get what I was looking for to comfort me, it equaled me having my 100%, in other words, when I was back in St. Louis, MO. I had 5 diffrent wemen but slept with only one, there was one that I could talk to about anything = 20%, there was one that didn't mind cooking for me = 20%, there was one that only wanted to paint the town and hang out and have fun = 20%, there was another that didn't mind cleaning up my place and washing my cloths from time to time = 20% and one that just wanted sex = 20%. I was the happiest man in the world for as long as I was willing to run cross town to get that 20% of comfort I was looking for, you want to know a secret... It didn't last very long because I went to the wrong woman for the wrong thing and my 100% dropped to 80% I found out ( the hard way) that two of these wemen worked together and they got to talking to each other and guess what... Yep, that's right, 60% it was the 40% that I enjoyed the most "The Talk to about anything with" and "The Having a good time with" I tried to fill those two empty slots with other wemen but failed BADLY, it led me to being "Antisocial" but it didn't stop there, the one that cooked for me found out from a woman that I tried to fill the social slot with about me and didn't want me around anymore and I got a message from the one that cleans and washes for me that she heard about what I had done, she wanted me to come by and see her just to say that she no longer wanted to do that anymore that dropped to 20% that left the one that I was having sex with so that led to me being a "Home Body" because that 20% came to my house when she or I was in the mood after which, when we were all done she went home to her kids and husband and since sex wasn't everything, I dropped her off as well and started to find that 40 to 60% but only was able to find that 30% that came with that 70% of stupidity and selfishness, if there is a silver lining in this, can somebody point it out to me? Plaese... Or maybe I'm in the wrong place and need a change of surroundings, maybe that will do it... Tennessee, here I come...