I've learned something very important today. Listening to sad music... SOOOOOO doesn't do ANY fucking good when you're sad... so why the fuck does everyone do it?!?!?!?!? Just to put this one out there, it's a bad idea... don't do it...
School is sooo going to suck, as is work... i want to just stay in bed... and lay there... i can't sleep... which totally bites... i dislike not being able to sleep... and I keep crying, so my fucking head hurts, and my nose is running, and my eyes look puffy.... I feel sicker than shit.... I'm sad, i'm whiny, this is just not a good day for me... and i have class until fucking 8... this is sooo going to suck on SOOO many levels... And stupid playlists playing sad songs, cuz i didn't change the stupid play list.... how's this one for making you cry~
"Listen To Your Heart"
I know there's something in the wake of your smile.
I get a notion from the look in your eyes, yea.
You've built a love but that love falls apart.
Your little piece of heaven turns too dark.
Listen to your heart
when he's calling for you.
Listen to your heart
there's nothing else you can do.
I don't know where you're going
and I don't know why,
but listen to your heart
before you tell him goodbye.
Sometimes you wonder if this fight is worthwhile.
The precious moments are all lost in the tide, yea.
They're swept away and nothing is what is seems,
the feeling of belonging to your dreams.
Listen to your heart
when he's calling for you.
Listen to your heart
there's nothing else you can do.
I don't know where you're going
and I don't know why,
but listen to your heart
before you tell him goodbye.
And there are voices
that want to be heard.
So much to mention
but you can't find the words.
The scent of magic,
the beauty that's been
when love was wilder than the wind.
Listen to your heart
when he's calling for you.
Listen to your heart
there's nothing else you can do.
I don't know where you're going
and I don't know why,
but listen to your heart
before you tell him goodbye.
Listen to your heart
I don't know where you're going
and I don't know why,
but listen to your heart
before you tell him goodbye.
It's got to be some unwritten law that when I get sad, i have to listen to every single sad song i own.... JUST to remind me i fucked up.... I have never actually felt so alone. I realized in the process of pissing him off i pissed of jane... it's amazing how one comment, when you aren't thinking, can cause so much damage... I know w/ him i made it worse after the fact, but even w/ her, i fucked up pretty bad... But he's not even talking to me now... so, it's pretty obvious how badly i screwed this one up.... I didn't really think this would be so hard on me... I've tried to sleep, to ignore it, to think about other shit, to pretend like none of this happened... but i miss him. It sucks because I know this only going to get worse for me... when it really sinks in that i've completely lost him... I guess it's my nature to hope i can fix it... I dunno... crying feels better i guess... somehow it eliminates that empty feeling in my tummy... but then there's the make up lines, and snot comnig out of my nose, and yeah, that sucks.... This love shit, sucks ass.... just to put that one out there... it really fucking sucks....
I'm gonna finish my paper for class, and yeah...
