Well with each day that goes by its getting a little easier for me to accept the way things are right now . But it won't keep me from wanting what I had . The hardest part about it was that he was supposed to come to visit me and spend a week with me this month and then he just broke it off saying he doesn't love me anymore . But some of it I blame it on him still being young and wanting to play the game for a bit . I know it sounds cynical but sometimes I do believe that love is just a wicked game that we play during our lifetime . But is it really worth it in the end. Right now I honestly don't know exactly how I feel. In a way I feel numb inside and just constantly wondering what happened ? How can someone just throw away a 2 year history for someone they have only known for 6 months give or take ?
