Fuck.. I dont even know what i wanna say so imma let my mind free and just write as i think.. So watch out this will be fucked up.... Ok here we go.. i miss my son.. I dont get to see him and I hardly get to talk to him then when i do talk to him like today My son was too busy to talk he was listenin to a song.. so he wouldnt talk.. That hurts but yet i know i deserve it.. Then ya go the whole fact that im living in a fucked up World.. And this world i speak of is my own mind.... Its FUCKED... im fuckin sick of getting hurt.. Im fuckin tired of being soo fuckin stupid.. And gullable.. I wish you all could see the world through my eyes.. Even for an hour.. You wouldnt be able to handle it.. The fucked up thoughts in my head... The shit i deal with.. The Fuckin abuse i take.. You'd never even know.. Its sooo fuckin hard.. Im 21 years old.. i shouldnt have this shit to think about or deal with.. i should be happy go lucky.. Not worry about how im gonna get things In order and straightened out so i can be the mom i wanna be and the mom my son deserves.... I just fuckin cant take it anymore.. Im sick of getting fucked with.. and Toyed with like its all a game.. Like Im just a Pawn or something.. .. Then My sons dad... Yea Hes Fuckin with me BADDDDDD and i mean BADDDDD I dont talk about him much hes a touchy subject... He's gonna get his 9th concussion from me soon.. The fuckin prick... Tells me i dont know how to be a parent cause im not there for my son everyday... But HOW THE FUCK CAN I BE THERE IF HE WONT LET ME SEE HIM!!!....... Shitts sooo fucked in my life.. But yea No one cares.. FUCK I dont even care anymore.... Im going now ... BYE... Comment if u want i can use some input...
Tiff
