If you've looked at my pics and see I don't smile alot, there's a good reason why. For the past few years I've litterally been thru hell and back. In '06, I lost everything I'd worked so hard for so many years for, and had to end up moving in with mom and dad. A few months after that, mom died. Then a year later, my sister gets murdered. This year I lost my dad and no will was left, so I'm going thru a legal mess here. I don't let it consume me, but most of the time I just seem to go thru the motions to just get thru the day. Hopefully better days lie ahead, but I know it's gonna take a long time, so please try to understand that I'm not cold, it's that I'm pretty much emotionally numb. I also lost a brother to suicide in 2001, but I'm dealing better with it now. So understandably there's quite a few days where I'm more withdrawn than others. Their birthdays (brother's March 11, mom August 5, sister's November 23 and dad's November 24) and the days of their deaths (brother's October 26, mom's May 21, sister's May 26 and dad's March 15. Just bear with me as these wounds are taking their time to heal.
