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Tattoo Placement

I am trying to decide WHERE i want my tattoo. Before I decided on the tattoo i need to decide on the placement since the tattoo needs to fit the area. ( read about my design ideas and what i want my tattoo to be about in my other blog titled "Tattoo design") So if my friends and any drop by readers will leave me their opions I would love to hear them. Here are places i am considering: 1) Nap of neck (Master isn't as keen on this location as I am) 2) Small of Back (very common so that sort of turnes me off to this location but it is still on my list as possiblities) 3) Front lower ab inside of left hipbone 4) Front center pubic mound area 5) Outer thigh 6) Ankle (my least favorite location) 7) Back/Shoulder 8)Front chest between breast (im not sure about this location) 9) Center upper back but not as high as neck. 10)Butt Cheek
As i was looking on the computer for my first formal posistions document I ran across a very raw and emotional letter from Master to myself. I will not post it here becuase it is very personal but i thought I would share a memory that it brought forward. This letter i mention was written 9/13/2005. It was written after I asked Master to release me from my submission. I was at a point I felt i was a failure as a slave and submissive and would never be what my Master desired me to be. Master was rather open about our lifestyle and I was not ready for that yet. Many people were discovering what i felt was a private area of our lives. I also felt Master had me on a pedestal and I was constantly falling from it. Master released me but we were still married. Our life for the next few weeks was painful and raw. I had become so accustom to calling my husband Master and not his name that i had no idea what to call him since Master was inapproriate. I would touch my neck and be startled to find my collar missing. I hole was in both our souls and we both felt like we were alone and drowning in grief overthe failure of this Master slave aspect of our lives. I think this was the big turning point for me. Up until this happen I was "playing a part", acting out what he wanted but never fully giving myself. But somewhere inside I was becoming what i was acting. I think i realized that and it is what made me ask for release. After a couple days i realized how big of a mistake i had made and i wanted despratly to be called "pet" again. Every time my true name crossed my husband's lips a would cringe. I begged for my collar back but Master was afraid i was just wanting it back to "make everything all right". While he was at work i poured over our contracts and read every BDSm Master/Slave site i could find. I needed to find out what i wanted from all this. Who I was and if i really wanted to be His slave. I made notes and journaled. After about a week I came before my husband Kneeled at his feet and asked that he listen to me without interruption. I told him how empty i felt the last couple weeks how painful it was to her my true name cross his lips and not the endearment "pet" How I didnt know what to say we I went to call for him... and how as i fell asleep i would wisper "I love you Master." I knew both of us were grieving and that i knew that i had made a big mistake...but so had he. Our contract had a cluase in it that stated "Release may be initiated by either Master or slave; there will be a three-month waiting period between request for release and actual release, during which time reconciliation is possible." I showed Master this cluase in our signed contracts and requested my collars back. Master agreed that I was correct but that for the next three months i needed to really search my heart and mind. I needed to completely embrace my submissivness or else we needed to leave this area of our relationship for good. We were to far in to go back to "playing Master and slave in the bed". It would be an all or nothing. I am happy to say That that very painful time resulted in me finally coming to completely accept my submissive side. So much so that just a few months later in april of 2006 I veamently defended a male dominated relationship to my Sister in Law at a wedding. Something I never would have done before. Granted my little speech pissed her off so much that we are no longer invited to any functions at their home and my children are not invited to their cousins parties. But I stood up for who I am and that is what matters most. Rereading that letter brought tears to my eyes..and I am not a free crier. But I smiled as I looked back at the last year and a half. I have grown so much. I am happy with my place in life and my place is at my Master's feetwith my head nestled in his lap. No woman could be more loved and more cherished then I am. I am "Master's Most Prized Possesion!"
Shadow (Heel) – leash command, but may be used when not leashed – When commanded, pet is to be on or move to Master’s right side, approximately 1 pace behind Master, as if she is leashed. pet follows remaining slightly behind and to the right of her Master. Often used if the Master wishes to engage in conversation while walking with his pet. If pet is not leashed and Master has not taken her by the hand, she is to reach out and gently place her hands upon his upper right arm. In this way she is tethered to her Master either by his leash, his grasp or her own grasp. she is not to stop the heel position until directed by her Master. (may be commanded while moving or standing still) Term to use is: Shadow Crawl - When commanded pet is to get into a position approximately 10 feet in front of Master on her hands and knees. Her head is to be held high. Upon Master’s command she is to crawl forward slowly and seductively until her head is within the grasp of Master. pet is to either stare into her Master’s eyes showing her lust or stare at Master’s crotch allowing master to see what it is she desires. If no other command is given pet is then to remain on her hands & knees Possible terms to use are: Faye Inspection – This allows Master to verify that his pet is maintaining her hygiene, shaving instructions and any specific dress, clamping or plugging instruction He has commanded of her. she is not to stop the Inspection position until directed by her Master. · Standard position is as follows: pet moves to within 2 feet of Master, standing in semi-military stance. Feet and legs should be wide apart - breasts pushed out - fingers laced behind head, chin up, eyes down, posture straight, allowing full body and genital exposure. her feet should be spread wide enough that Master can easily play with her pussy or ass · Alternate position is the same as standard excepting that pet is on her knees. Either she has been ordered to her knees or she is already on her knees. pet will remain on her knees but spread them as far apart from each other as she is able and still remain in an upright position. her knees should be spread wide enough that Master can easily play with her pussy or ass Term to use is: Inspect (standard position is the default) Display - This position is a command for pet to show or offer her Master whatever specific body portion Master has commanded stated (ie: Display Breasts) pet will maintain whatever display has been commanded of her until Master allows her to move. her breasts, anal area and vaginal area are all available for Master to command she display. Any word Master wishes may be used for these body parts but must be preceded with a Display or offer command. (ie: breasts, tits, cunt, pussy, ass, asshole, etc) · If Display Breasts then pet will place her hands beneath her breasts and lift them up and towards her Master and await his next command. (may be done while standing or kneeling) · If Display Pussy then pet will reach down with both hands and spread the lips of her pussy so that Master can see her pussy and await his next command. (may be done while standing or kneeling) · If Display Ass then pet will turn away from Master and bend over at the waist. she will then reach behind her with both hands and spread the cheeks of her ass so that Master can clearly see her asshole and await his next command. (may be done while standing or kneeling, if kneeling pet may lay her upper body on the floor to support herself) Terms to use are: Display or Offer (followed by body portion specified) Submit - Front cuff - while maintaining any previous formal presentation position -- When commanded pet is to immediately move her hands to the front of her body and cross her wrists as if bound or waiting to be bound. Cuffing can be 'invisible.' pet is not allowed to separate her hands until given permission by her Master. Term to use is: Submit

Tattoo design

This is my journal entry from my slave journal. I am required to place one entry a week. I decided to share this one here as maybe someone can help me. Jan 23rd 2007 I have been thinking more about my tattoo lately. I would really like to find something soon and have it done by my birthday or Slave-Aversary. I have 2 basic designs, the BDSM symbol or the Kanji for "slave", one of which i will incorporate into my tattoo. These designs alone are to boring for my taste. And do not say everything I want them to. SO I have thought of things that I could add to the basic design and what they would mean in the context of my Slavery. Ideas to go with the basic designs and why: · Wings (becoming a slave has freed me from my inhibitions wings stand for freedom) · Roses (I have blossomed like a rose under my Masters hand and of course my slave name Enah Rose) · Lock without a key (because only a Master holds the key to a slaves lock) · Chains (for the bondage a slave is in) · Eye (because the eyes are window to the soul and in my deepest soul i am a submissive, would have the BDSM symbol in the eyeball to reflect the soul so th speak) · Butterfly (since becoming a slave I have came out of my cacoon and developed into a new creature) ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ If anyone is good at tattoo design or knows someone who is or even a likely design that would fit please message me. I never go into anything half assed. I have already spent countless hours thinking about what I want looking at designs and tattoo websites. Once I find what I want I will not settle for less then an excellent tattooist. I traveled for my piercing so that it could be done by the best in the business. I am willing to travel for my tattoo also.

A day in my Life

After nearly 7 weeks of medical leave from the Master/slave life I am returning to my duties as Master's slave. I had an old blog on Myspace, but can't find it now, that outlined what a day in my life was like. I usually start my day waking my Master for work. Sometimes I wake him properly with a blowjob other time with just a kiss. As he showers and shaves I iron his clothes and pack his lunch. I kiss him goodbye and lock the doors (Master is adamant about the house being locked at all times especially when i am home alone). I set about getting ready for my day. I eat breakfast and sit down at the computor for about two hours. I check my emails Cherrytap Myspace etc. Sometimes I will play an Online RPG, Guildwars. After my computer time I will look at my chore list. Everyday I have a section of the house that must be cleaned. Monday is the Master Bed and Bath, Tuesday the Computer and Living rooms, Etc. I clean whatever rooms are alloted for that days. After cleaning up I exercise for about an hour and then I have lunch. The i usually take a nap...sometimes being a slave is very nice =). After my nap I do my slave chores. This is a list of tasks that are Master and slave related. They are not mundane housecleaning type chores. I have to Read (something BDSM related) and report on it daily, do Kegels a couple times a week, Practice slave Positions a couple times a week, Read Submissive forums/Boards a couple times a week, Journal at least once a week, read body Affirmations once a week, Read slave posistions once a week. By this time it is afternoon and I have to switch into a different role and deal with Family life which includes helping with homework making dinner washing luandry reading bedtime stories etc. I always meet my Master at the door with a kiss when he arrives home from work. I remove his shoes and socks and bring him a drink. If he is ready for his dinner I bring him a lap tray and his meal along with any condiments he might desire. I have always served my husband like this even befor I was his slave. Once the "family" time comes to a close and the kids are tucked in bed I switch to full slave mode. I go to my room, undress, put on my "real collar", and a robe. I have 4 robes to choose from and each one is a different color. Each color means a different level of "slave mode". I'll post the outline for the color codes in another blog. Depending on my robe color Master then chooses what he wishes for me to do that night. We try to have one real scene a month and a mini scene once a week. After our play time Master usually put me to bed and either joins me or stays up to finish up work. Thats a quick and condensed version of a day in my life.

Slave Robes Color Codes

Blue - · 100% Sexual Activity can be commanded · Scenes can be expected · Household Chores must be completed · Slave Chores must be completed · Service is expected · Full respect is expected as both a Wife and Slave · Full Protocols must be followed Black - · Sexual Activity (Limited) · No Scenes · Household Chores must be completed · Slave Chores must be completed · Service is expected · Full respect is expected as both a Wife and Slave · Full Protocols must be followed with the following having limitations o Cock Worship will be limited o Punishable Offenses will be viewed with far greater leniency § See Chart A Gold - · No Sexual Activity can be commanded · No Scenes · Household Chores must be completed · Slave Chores must be completed · Service is Limited · Full respect is expected as both a Wife and Slave · Full Protocols must be followed with the following having limitations o No Cock Worship o Punishable Offenses will be viewed with greater leniency § See Chart A Red - · No Sexual Activity can be commanded · No Scenes · No Household Chores · No Slave Chores · No Service · No Protocols other then Mutual Respect CHART A Protocols under: Black Titles - Expected Desserts - Still ask Bed - Still ask to get in Cock Worship - Limited Gold Titles - Not Expected Desserts - Still ask Bed - Still ask to get in Cock Worship - No

Rewards for a good Slave

Recently Master has been very pleased with his pet's efforts to please him. As i recently underwent 2 major surgeries that have placed most of our sex life and any heavy M/s sceneing on hold, I have had to place more emphisis on my attitude. I really have been trying hard to please my Master to the very best of my current abilities. He has seen my efforts and wishes to reward them so he has instructed me to produce a list of things I wish for as rewards, both kinky and mundane. Here are a couple I have listed so far: Cake Decorating classes Photography Classes Gym Membership Penis gag Lingerie (preferably leather :) )
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